Sorry, I had to yell at you about the whole mother, older brother, and younger brother dynamic but it was the only way to remind you that he will end up playing you and then end up coming back to me you need to stop talking to him not for my sake but for all our sake because he will relapse back on opioids I already made my choices which are good and bad inaction and action and choice led to mistakes and consequences but the repeat of the 10 1/2 years of the back and forth I can’t deal with that because I need […]
So I forget I am not allowed to type certain things on here but I am thinking that I am better off dead wish someone was allowed to kill me since I am not strong enough to do it myself.
Rebound as always which is awesome but still sucks that I am still alive when I want to die just not strong enough to do it myself.
Never strong enough to die
always want to die someone
just kill me please.
I’ll rebound again which is great but life is suffering and non suffering sure my life is great but at what cost is that greatness?
Someone find me in Madison, WI and just kill me please I will probably regret typing this but I regret being alive. The dead have no regrets I don’t believe in God or the Afterlife I wish it was true but that is just the excuse or justification I give myself in hopes that something greater in my life happens.
No mental hospitals bullshit just mercy kill me quick and painless. […]
I think the truth is as long as I am alive I will always want to die I absolutely, objectively, relatively, subjectively acknowledge that being is suffering and non suffering depending on the situation I am looking for a way to get rid of suicidal thoughts but I don’t think there is truly a way to get rid of them.
Not strong enough to end my own life which is probably a good thing but at the end of this I just want to be happy fortunately I’ll just rebound back on my own the only drugs I have ever experimented on is alcohol, cigarettes, weed […]
Well, I’ve been thinking about whether I should forgive my older brother he is in jail again on his own stupidity of his own drug problem long story short I have a bad history of enabling my brother with money and the debt he owes me is somewhere around $1000-1500 dollars just an estimate I would have to look through all the transaction transfers via Facebook, Western Union, and Smart Deposit for bailing his ass out of jail near the end of August and within the following month of September he got arrested again and I am kind of done having to relive another ten […]
This isn’t about suicide but this is more or less a rant about my older brother owing me money that he’ll never be able to pay me back which I am tired of having an older brother who can’t be responsible for his own actions and keeps asking me for money I am tired having to see things from his perspective about the choices which led to his mistakes which has its own consequences one thing we humans don’t always realize is that yes we choose our own mistakes due to our own poor reasonsing or judgement or whatever the point is that it is […]
I am not going to kill myself despite the fact there are times I want to my username says it all suicidal thoughts but refuse to kill myself my older brother is in jail which I already gave him some money which I am not suppose to do depending on your perspective on enabling which I am always 50/50 on and I am a 26 year old virgin too socially awkward to even ask a girl out wouldn’t mind buying myself a fucking shotgun just so I can blast my brains out, but I continue to keep myself alive I don’t know why maybe I […]
This is not about suicide this is about asking for help on here about asking for advice my older brother and I were suppose to hangout for his birthday a while back on April 30th but he got arrested for something I do not know about and he is an heroin-opioid addict; while, as they say for every addict there is an enabler which I believe and don’t believe in 50/50 for I am getting tired of dealing with this rehash relapse bullshit this is the third time or something close to the third, not the first obviously yet he keeps calling because he probably […]
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