Planning my suicide bring me joy and peace. Choosing my funeral home for cremation. Picking out my bios urn and small urns for my family. Counting down the days. Knowing that soon I will be a forgotten soul and all my suffering will be over. Currently I have 137 days to live. 137 more days of suffering, anxiety and shame. I often revisit pages about suicide methods of famous ppl I followed who committed suicide like Simone Battle, Karyn Washington and Titi Branch. I often wonder if they felt like I do. Did they count down the days? What did they do on their […]
So fucking sick of this life! I hate my parents for bringing me here! Black parents are traitors and liars. Why would you live a shitty inferior life then bring me here to do the same? Black people are hated the WORLD over because the majority are criminals and too stupid to function. It does not matter if you try to be a “good negro” your image is tainted from birth. Outside of accra and lagos (probably built up by non-blacks) there are no black civilizations. Nothing but death, misery and disease becomes of any place we inhabit. I chose to remain childfree because I […]