I made my first post here 6 months ago. I cannot remember how i felt then but I’m sure it’s a similar feeling of what I have now. I am overwhelmed with pressure into going into nursing school. In all honesty, I dont want to be a nurse. I do not have the social capability of doing so. My parents are forcing so much onto me and my mother says I have no right to choose what is best for me even though I am almost 20. I’ve been lying bout my grades just for them to leave me alone and it has come to […]
Such a beautiful day today. I am 18 and I’m lonely. I’m sad all the time. I did some in depth research on Ricardo Lopez for the past 3 days. I can say I’ve become really attached to the topic. My heart is even racin just thinking about it. I watched his suicide tape about 3 times already. It doesn’t seem to phase me anymore. I am a very sick person infactuated with death. I go to church, i believe in God, but I find myself obsessed with death. I wanted to be part of death. But a part of me is saying I shouldn’t. […]