The only thing I have that I can rely on 100% of the time is my daughter…
I’m just so tired of everything.
I am literally exhausted of trying to keep pretending that I’m fine.
I am tired of trying not to cry.
Usually failing.
I’m tired of being blamed…
I’m so emotionally worn out…
I don’t want to care anymore…because all it ever does is hurt….
The only one I know will always be here is her.
I’m so tired of false hopes…
I’m exhausted…waking up is a burden that I only continue to carry for her…
I have friends I care about…but she’s […]
People always say you learn from your mistakes, and usually I do. I’ve learned not to let myself get the best of me. Lately though, I don’t know, lately it’s like I’m setting myself up for disaster, for heart break, it’s like I’m subconsciously looking for something or someone to break me down more than I already have been. It’s like I want to test the limits of what I can handle, or maybe I’m just trying to bring back that emotional numbness. I’ve always been the one that’s chosen last, in elementary school it was in sports and games, in high school it was […]
Those pretty little lies
Put a smile on my pretty little lips
Your pretty little eyes
Play pretty little tricks
Your deceiving
I’m unbelieving
You cheat
You lie
Your words so sweet
I can’t deny
Your pretty little lies
Blind my pretty little eyes
I do without thinking
I live without breathing
I can’t keep regretting
I can’t keep believing
Your pretty little lies
Your pretty little lies
I can’t keep my pretty little lips smiling
I know you deceiver
I can’t keep my pretty little eyes from crying
I know you believer
I fall apart
Because of your pretty little […]
I know it’s stupid to think about ways to die when I’ll never take the step that ends my life. Life can be miserable sometimes, but I still find myself more afraid of dying than I am of struggling through this hell I’m constantly in. I love my daughter too much to end my life, my parents and friends as well…
I cry myself to sleep just about every night…I can’t bring myself to self harm in any ways other than drinking excessively. I used to cut when I was about 14 or 15 I started on my thighs because I knew no one would […]
It’s hopefully gonna be a good one 🙂
I was in this old abandoned house, and I went into one of the bedrooms, it was obviously a little girls room everything the previous owners had was still there but it was layered with years of dirt and grime and neglect, while I was looking around at all these memories some stranger left behind this really old cat came limping out of the closet, he looked like he’d been there ever since these people left, just abandoned, alone, he was dirty, his fur wasn’t healthy and neither was he, it was obvious he’d been scavenging all these years to survive, i picked up a […]
For every day I live a small piece of me dies. For all the moments I spend with out you, for all the breaths you’ll never take, for all the smiles you’ll never smile, for all the tears you’ll never shed a piece of me dies. I find my way for her, I make myself go on for Annabelle. I live because her innocence saves me, her laughter gives me strength, and her touch is my saving grace. For every breath she takes, for all the smiles she smiles, for all the love she has, a piece of me holds on. I can’t explain […]
I hate pretending like I’m okay when every little thing reminds me of you.
I feel like a horrible person because I’ve tried finding someone new.
I cry myself to sleep at night and I’m afraid to turn off the light…
I’m afraid that I’ll see you, I usually do…
I miss everything about you…
I miss your eyes so blue…
I miss your smile and the light in your eyes,
I miss the way we talked all night…
I miss how our hands, mine so small compared to yours, still fit perfectly together…
I miss how you seemed so excited, when you found out […]
I’m writing a story inspired by a dream I had, when I’m finished I will post it. The general story line is about a girl that falls in love with the devil, death, evil, or whatever you feel like calling him. I haven’t decided on his name however I am tempted to go with the ever classic, Lucifer. Thoughts?
THE ANIMA SERIES
Look the channel up on YouTube if you want.
***They are Christian messages***
I just wanted to let that be known, I’m not shoving religion down anyones throat, I just wanted to share some videos I found to be very uplifting. Even if your not Christian some of these messages are still really good to hear.
I also don’t care if anyone is offended by this, if anyone is then they have a problem because there is much worse in the world today.
I’m a 22 year old mother, my daughter is 8 months old, I have a college degree, and I still can’t get out of my parents house. Fuck. I gotta get out. -.-
HEY TRISTEZA JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE YOU GIRL!!! <3
It’s strange…
When you have never met, or even spoken to a person…yet you feel like on some level you already know them.
It may be you feel that way because of things that someone tells you about them,
or it may be because in a way you know what they are going through.
You know them through someone else’s correspondence with them,
because you try to reassure the person that loves this stranger you feel you know.
You feel helpless…because you wish you could tell that person how much they are loved by someone, yet you can’t.
You feel useless because with all the […]
I met a girl on here who has become a very good friend to me. She is so sweet, kind, and honest. I haven’t known her long but I feel so lucky to have made a friend like her. Things are difficult sometimes for each of us in different ways but we are able to help each other through them. I know there’s a reason she was put in my life and even though I live so far from her I feel closer to her than I have to so many people that live in my town that claim to be my friends. I struggle […]
When you first start to doubt a persons truthfulness it starts out like a small noise you hear in the background every now and then, as it grows it becomes a deafening roar that you can’t escape. What do you do when your afraid to stay but not ready to let go?
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Running in circles,
You fall,
Digging deeper,
Confused.
Lost.
Your lost.
Breathing…
Seeing…
Heart beating…
Blood rushing through your veins.
But what is this filth that your breathing?
What is this desecration that your seeing?
Why is your heart beating when you don’t really live?
Why is your blood flowing when you can’t understand your life or what’s left of it?
Life…
Living a terminal disease,
Everyday you live your moving closer to dying.
Try and show yourself why…
You don’t know why…
You can’t find the truth.
You don’t know where your going.
People lose your trust.
But who are you to trust when you can’t even trust yourself?
Your psyche […]
It all comes crashing down so suddenly.
It all comes falling in this downward spiral of everything you love and everything you know.
It twists you apart inside and you don’t know how to let it go.
Crying tears that no one else knows about and pulling away from it all.
Distractions only last so long and then reality comes creeping back in once you stop moving and take the time to breathe.
You try to be the glue that holds it all together but everything you touch falls to ruins.
Holding it in kills you but there’s […]
They say time heals all wounds…but I think that’s a lie. I think it’s just something that someone made up one day to tell someone they knew that was struggling through something. I wish there was some magical thing that could help every person that is depressed or suicidal because I know how suicide can hurt people you don’t think it would…I know how much it sucks to be on the other end of suicide, and even I feel guilty for wishing I wouldn’t wake up in the morning. I miss being happy. But I guess when you’ve lost one of the most important people […]
My daughter’s father before he committed suicide.I was three months pregnant. This was while we were still happy.
This is Annabelle, our daughter. She was born 3 months after her father committed suicide. […]