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TheHours

Woman. Educated. Good job. Unloved. Hopeless. Empty. Once was excited for the future. Once was unstoppable. Once was loved. Now...I am nothing.

Last try to save myself

by TheHours 2/15/2014

written by TheHours

I feel like I’m nearing the end. I am trying my hardest to hold on. I started cutting. I’m drinking and oversleeping again.

I tried to talk to my therapist but she mentioned something about ‘not losing my license’ and the deep sighing is all starting to make me feel like she’s frustrated with me.

I am certain no one dislikes me more than I dislike myself. When I feel that someone I respect becomes irritated with me then I just embrace self-hate that much more.

If your own shrink is done with you then why would I keep trying?

I want to be happy. I want to be […]

2/15/2014 14 comments

Just Too Tired

by TheHours 1/31/2014

written by TheHours

Ever been woken at 3 am? Remember being sooo tired that you can hardly move?

Now imagine you’re cold but too tired to get up to get an extra blanket.
Or maybe you have to go to the bathroom but you’re too tired.
Have you ever fallen asleep in an uncomfortable spot, e.g., your car, the living room floor, etc. but you’re too tired to get up?

That’s how I feel when I’m at my lowest point of depression & when I have my strongest desire to leave.

I may want to “get up” but I cannot. I’m just “too tired”. The thought of getting showered, […]

1/31/2014 4 comments