I swear to God I’m trying. When I say I don’t know, I really honestly and truly don’t know. Yesterday we talked about me being crazy, and you seemed ok with that. Well why not today? I’m no more or less crazy today. The demons that haunted then still haunt me now. Everything’s piling up but I swear I’m getting rid of it, maybe not on anyone’s schedule, but I am getting rid of it.
I have no friends. It’s a painful realization. Any friends that I had, that I considered to be true friends,( you know the kind that actually care about you, ask about you, help you, instead of those that expect you to do that for them but don’t return the favor) are at college now and at least 2 hours away. The “friend” that I’ve had for the longest, since the fifth grade, is too busy with community college and his girlfriend and weed to spend time with me. I smoked with him the other day, for the first time in 5 months. I had been […]
I have an important assignment for school, that I NEED to do today, it’s already like a week late, and it basically determines if I graduate from high school. But I can’t work on it. My mind is reeling, it’s not ordered, it’s not focused, its all over the place. I NEED to do this assignment but I can’t. I just keep thinking about all my fuckups. I keep remembering the last time I was happy, and I want to go back there. I want to but I can’t it’s in the past and I can’t get it back. I’ve been so unhappy for so […]