I’m alive, I wanna die, but I don’t know, I’m scared of the fact maybe I’m not trying hard enough to live? Maybe not, I don’t know. I hate the things I’ve done, I hate the way things are, each time I take a step towards changing them I get 2-3 steps backwards, its not fair, I really don’t know what to do. I have nightmares every day about my past, about people from my past, people I care about dying, me dying. Every night, not just one here or there but every night. I like to burn myself to ease the pain of thinking […]
TheTragicTruth
I Mean Everything is telling Me to, I Fail at Whatever I try, Each time I Manage to take a Step in the Right Direction, its 2 Step Backwards, Like God (If their is On) is Laughing at Me, People Around Me Don’t Seem to Care, they Use an Excuse Like Oh You Can’t I Need You to Do this, or Do that, for their Own Amusement/Need… I’m tired of Everything, the Only Relationship I Did Manage to Feel Loved in, I Fucked Up and She Won’t Even talk to Me (Not Going into Details, its Posted On Here). Everything I try to Live for […]
I’m Scared, Did Something I Can’t Make Up for… and I Wasn’t Even Mentally Aware
Long story short, I feel like it would be better to die then live through the pain, guilt and agony knowing that I did something to people that loved and cared about that they can’t forgive and hate me for. I was on Cymbalta, yes prescribed by a Doctor and about after 3 weeks on it I got in an argument with my GF’s Grandfather in the car, I was told to get out, later he dropped my phone off to me while I was walking back I guess, I don’t remember everything, just what I’ve been told… anyway I assaulted him through the car […]