I’m alive, I wanna die, but I don’t know, I’m scared of the fact maybe I’m not trying hard enough to live? Maybe not, I don’t know. I hate the things I’ve done, I hate the way things are, each time I take a step towards changing them I get 2-3 steps backwards, its not fair, I really don’t know what to do. I have nightmares every day about my past, about people from my past, people I care about dying, me dying. Every night, not just one here or there but every night. I like to burn myself to ease the pain of thinking about it, but that’s a temp thing, can’t do that 24/7 plus the scars from it. I’m thinking of just putting my shotgun under my chin/throat and shooting, but what if I end up still alive? I know its a small possibility, but still… I have no one, nothing, and I’m back at ground zero after all the shit before.
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Yes, it’s risky.Where are some stories and pictures here:
http://www.bestgore.com/category/suicide/page/4/
What’s more, I’ve tried to shoot(I didn’t know it was a gas pistol), but to my temple.
I knew what consequences can be so I thought: if after first bullet I still be alive, I’ll try more.So after five times I understood sth is wrong…
If you feel fine except you don’t have with who to speak, I think you don’t need to kill yourself, but try to find friends.
Yes, it’s risky.Where are some stories and pictures here:http://www.bestgore.com/category/suicide/page/4/
What’s more, I’ve tried to shoot(I didn’t know it was a gas pistol), but to my temple.
I knew what consequences can be so I thought: if after first bullet I still be alive, I’ll try more.So after five times I understood sth is wrong…
If you feel fine except you don’t have with who to speak, I think you don’t need to kill yourself, but try to find friends.
Yes, it’s risky.Where are some stories and pictures here:
(the site is in pending comments section, I dunna how to moderate.)
What’s more, I’ve tried to shoot(I didn’t know it was a gas pistol), but to my temple.
I knew what consequences can be so I thought: if after first bullet I still be alive, I’ll try more.So after five times I understood sth is wrong…
If you feel fine except you don’t have with who to speak, I think you don’t need to kill yourself, but try to find friends.