I have never told a soul in the entire world about this! I wish that I had the time to post this on April 28, which was the 11th anniversary of the day that I thought would be my last day on this Earth as I had an extreme and almost nonstop desire to hang myself, while jerking off for 2 days prior to April 28 and I couldn’t wait until I could die from this, so I would not have to think of the embarrassment of something like this, but I will be at peace! Late in the afternoon on April 28, […]
In some ways having Asperger’s has similar types of symptoms to being bipolar! When I get to do something that I really enjoy, I get very manic and my whole world lights up! It’s also known as getting to enjoy my special interests that are associated with having Aspergers Syndrome and my special interests are trains! When I go through the usual blah shit, I just wish that I could die! When I have to do things that I don’t want to do, everything turns to shit! I am feeling extremely manic because I will do some traveling in the […]
The weather got too fucking hot for the first time this year, so I decided to take off all clothes. I heard that it is possible to pass out by touching my carotid artery and I found out that it is on my neck around my ear. I pressed against it at times and I came close to passing out, but there must be an extremely narrow place touch because at other times, it just hurt! I took an old shirt and wrapped it around my neck and I was trying to press against the carotid artery and I came close to […]
I just had another weird dream a little while ago! I had a dream that a reporter from a TV station in South Florida, which is known for it’s tabloid sensationalistic fucking garbage in their “news” wanted to do an interview with me to talk about my experience with being into auto erotic asphyxia. By the way, I’m not going to mention what TV station this is, but it is known for the most extreme tabloid sensationalistic fucking garbage in the “news” in the United States, if not the entire world! I agreed to do the interview as long as it is […]
These are the reasons that I want die:
1. I’m unique
2. I have Asperger’s
3. I feel isolated
4. I will never fall in love with anyone!
5. Most people in this world suck!
6. I won’t have to be afraid anymore and my anxiety will be gone for good!
7. I’m stinky and I smell!
8. I get overwhelmed so easily!
9. Humanity keeps sinking to lower and lower lows!
10. Being naked when I hang myself makes me very vulnerable, so I need to be successful with ending my life, so I won’t be hurt anymore!
11. As the late great Wendy O Williams said, “this world doesn’t make much sense”!
12. Just thinking about […]
With me, hearing comedy doesn’t make my pain go away, but it makes me feel a lot better, temporarily! This is the late great George Carlin talking about suicide:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qS1o4YcWGZs
I prefer comedy than hearing all this touchy feely shit that’s popular these days! Most of it is so pretentious and phony. George Carlin was honest! George Carlin doesn’t just talk about suicide, but he brings up autoerotic asphyxia before all is said and done! Why did George Carlin have to croak when there are so very few decent people left in this world?
It takes awhile to get to know someone. In my previous 3 posts I have mentioned how I would like to die from autoerotic asphyxia. What I haven’t gotten into much is my personality exists of extreme fight and flight. There are a lot of times I feel intense hatred and rage towards the world and humanity in general. What I can’t really stand are people who have tried to shove conformity down my fucking throat! People just couldn’t mind their own fucking business, so they had to terrorize me and treat me like shit for being different! Is that going to make me embrace […]
So many people forgot about Wendy O Williams. I didn’t! Wendy, it’s so sad that you had to take your life. I can’t blame you! This world is controlled by such evil assholes! Someday I will get to leave this stupid world and join you:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuQLyDv7uO4
Most people in this world are such phony, pretentious back stabbing fucking scum, I look to people like Beavis and Butthead for hope and inspiration! Beavis and Butthead ain’t perfect, but at least they are honest! Not only that, they are sleazy and they are funny! There are only a few decent people in this world. A few. Very few! […]
I am wondering if there is a link between Asperger’s and autoerotic asphyxia? Considering that AEA is not talked about nearly often enough, it is difficult and frustrating to come up with a determination? I get a feeling that a high percentage of people who have died from AEA had Asperger’s or were on the autism spectrum? Based on their profile, they were creative and had rather high IQs.
Even though a lot of people who are into AEA have Asperger’s, there are very few people with Asperger’s who are into AEA, however many people with Asperger’s feel awkward in social situations, have a difficult time […]
I appreciate those who responded to my post about how I want to die from autoerotic asphyxia as there is no cure for what I am into! I was put on this Earth to share my story with as many people as I can! At least if I lose my sanity and end up taking my life because of this intense desire that I have, then I will have at least accomplished something very important by sharing my story about it!
I wish that there was someone who I could talk to about this, but I don’t trust anyone! I’ve gone to a couple of therapists […]
I never haven’t had a chance to tell very many people about this, but I am into something which is known as autoerotic asphyxia and it is not easy to talk about this and unlike other people who claim to be into this claim that it gives them a “high” and they don’t really want to die, but I think that’s bullshit and they are lying! With me, when I get hit with this intense desire, I don’t just want to experience a “high”, but I actually want to hang myself! Also, I want to be totally nude when I hang myself and then I […]