And i give up. I can’t watch all of the sorrow i create around me. I have ruined so much. I’ve used up my attempts at having a good life, being a good person. I go through the work week so numb and on the weekends i sit alone, numb, in bed. I drink till i fall asleep. and then do it again. i can’t go on with this garbage. and so i deserve death. no more pain for those around me. no more wasted time and others money. Ill live alone and die alone. goodnight.
Author
Trent
In recent years, for some reason i keep thinking things may turn around. what shit. things only get worse, like the growing pain i have living. in recent years ive had 2 sepereate relationships ending in getting cheated on.. i dont complain to people i know, as i would burden and alienate them, as i have done to all of my friends. i recently lost my best friend to suicide. I have no one to talk to. i lost my car. my job. my frinds. family. and parts of my body from accidents. I have cancer.