I was just prescribed Vyvanse and even though I have not taken it every day in the last 2 weeks I am thinking that it really revs up the suicidal thoughts. Same with Lorazepam.
Anyone else…?
Today I set a date for checking out. I’ve chosen a method but have to do a bit more research. I’m nervous about it since I’ve tried killing myself a few times before and have bad luck and am spacey. I seem to survive strange things, like getting hit by a truck going 60 mph (I wasn’t in a car, was on the side of the road). This was not a suicide attempt–the guy was on coke and ran the car off the road–but just something that happened. I’ve also survived a savage dog attack where I got over 70 puncture wounds, lost some use […]
I finally found someone to love–great guy. Â He’s willing to be with me warts and all, and yet my depression, problems with work, anxiety and PTSD symptoms are so bad that I can’t imagine he’d stay with me in the long term. Â We’ve been married for about a year and half.
My biggest struggle right now is work, but of course that’s affecting my new marriage in a huge way.
I suppose some would say I’m going through mid-life stuff, (I’m 42) but I’ve always struggled with work. Â I’ve tried everything I can do with my degrees (English and MFA Creative Writing), but have not found a […]