I have always been an independent person when it came to my emotional well being. Lately though I am feeling more and more like I need someone. It’s not going to happen though. I’m so depressed who the fuck would wanna be around my ass. Somethings gotta give. I hope it’s not my will.
unloved and alone
So my brethren, the fallen, the angels the world tormented…I ask you to come to my call.
I’m not always like this. It’s like lately there’s a leech demon always at my side. Destroying every small moment of happiness I can muster. I wake up with scratches on my body. There is no way this could happen. I have no fingernails. I chew the shit out of them. I’m wondering if some of those crazy people I thought were delusional religious fanatics might be right about a few things. I really don’t know why I post here. It’s not gonna help me. I do have a lot in common with many of you. I am very smart but my words and thoughts […]
I really don’t know what to say here. I feel fucking stupid doing this. It’s all too much to explain and talk about all in one sitting. I’m seriously fucked up I guess. I can barely bring myself to type the words, let alone speak them. I am not someone who has been unhappy my whole life. This is something fairly new to me. There is this whole history of psychological abuse that has happened in recent years. It’s made me not trust anyone. I feel like I’m constantly in a dark room with no sound except my own breathing. I try to open up […]