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So I have been a person who thought about suicide, but I don’t really think about it anymore (although, I do think about dying).

Anyways, I wanted to discuss this with people, and I don’t feel like doing that with people I know.

Apathy – The lack of feeling towards things
Nihilism – The philosophy/choice that everything means nothing
Depression – Apathy can be a symptom of depression

I think I feel mostly nihilistic, but the rest of it is apathy.

I do a lot of stuff, but it’s whatever…and I have given up a lot of things that are general topics for people.

Ex. Don’t watch TV (including news), not i […]

Every time I figure out how to get out of my limp of depression, it evolves to something harder to figure out.

My existential depression has turned very nihilistic. Subconsciously it is slowing destroying everything I do.

and without this confidence, it makes me fear responsibility of almost any kind, especially relationships with people.

I will estimate that if nothing changes, most thing I’m involved in will no longer be in a year.

I feel like I should run away now, on a higher note, otherwise, if I wait, worse will happen. Because at that point I’ll really feel like there is no where else to turn.

I have a […]