I don’t get how I gained weight !!! I calculated the calories I burn naturally in a day, plus exercise to burn more and only eating about 1000 calories…. according to that, I should have a deficit of about 1000 calories a day, so in 3 days and a half I am supposed to lose 1 pound !!! Three days later, I gained 0.7 pounds, wtf ?? I panicked when I saw the number and started crying. there is NO way I am staying fat.
I hate my life right now and the fact that my mother is always on my back isn’t helping me. ”get a job” ”pick your ass up and go outside” ”you lazy ass” ”what are you afraid of, people??” ”why’d you quit college in the first place for ?? ” ”it isn’t that hard” ”quit the drama”
Well you know what ?? FUCK. YOU. you selfish, ignorant, mean *****. she has been depressed, she should know better than to treat me like that. I am so anxious about turning 18 next month, and her comments aren’t making things easier for me. I KNOW i need a […]
I seriously think I am throwing my life in the garbage, but sadness has eaten the last bit of awareness I had left in my brain and I discovered a profound love for drugs…. So I guess after the strong tides I’ve tried to swim through, it’s time I float on this raft for a while, just for a little bit. It makes me feel secure. I still see my dream island far in the horizon, but I need rest. I’ll have to start swimming again soon if I don’t want to be carried away on an unsafe shore. But for now, I am just […]
For as long as I remember, I never loved anyone. Like I’ve been attracted to guys, but I never felt anything. Like if they would dump me the next day, I wouldn’t even care. And it’s’the same for my family and friends. Everyone but my sister. What is wrong with me? How would you best describe love?
Please know that you were my biggest fail and the greatest thing to ever happen to me. I miss the old days. You won’t admit it, but I know you do too. Or maybe that’s’what I like to tell myself… You were dead inside for so long already, and I was a fool for hoping I could ever fix you. You walked out of my life like you didn’t consider the impact you had on me during the last year of school. It was the best one of them all, because I was not actually bullied, and I had you. You kept me going when […]
I am screwing up my life for no reason. I just feel like the way I was living was not getting me anywhere, so I decided to drop college and live my life on the road. But I am so fucking scared. I need someone to do this with me. Because if I continue living this life, in which I have to be always high to get trough a day, I will go mad. My life right now doesn’t make me wanna do better. I don’t need happiness. In fact, I kinda want to be miserable, because I am too scared that I really messed […]
Hey i really need somebody to start travelling with full time, backbacker style. I live in montreal, so if you live in canada and are interested, really serious, hit me up and we can laugh, cry, exchange, travel and live together for a while. zamilee1@gmail.com for any info about me and talking about how we’ll organise our meeting! I don’t bite! I won’t say my life story here, so please write to me !!! I am so sick of this place and need to get away from this 🙁
I could seriously just end my life, just like that. Nothing’s stopping me, not even the words of my ”friends &family”. All I see is pain. Give me a break you deluded, sellf-servant prick. If you really believe in the words that you preach, get off your screens and onto the streets! Ahhh Bring Me The Horizon always has the right words… Yet people succeed flawlessly into ignoring people who have the right words. They don’t care about nothing but money anymore and it saddens me, even scares me. This world is a waste, humans have destroyed it, well most of it. There are still […]
I feel numb to all happiness surrounding me. I smoke pot daily, just so I feel a thrill from this life, and a little escape from every day’s crap. I need a bigger trip. Like mush or acid. Or love. I’ve been waiting for someone to love for 17 years now. All I got was hurt and scared. I just need to kiss and hug and comfort someone.Talk and cry with them. Run and laugh and live with them. All I have is a broken sister, an overwhelmed mother and a hole in my heart. I feel so empty and even tho I love myself, […]
I am really so sick of living already, people are so mean to each other and forget about what they really are. We are organic matter. We are animals who developped enough, over centuries, their frontal lobe so that we can think. That is all, really. Why bother with HAVING to work, HAVING to be beautiful, HAVING money, HAVING power…. can’t we just embrace life? This universe will go to waste anyways, so why learn at school? The fact that I know how to spell words in a language we use, what’s that giving me as a creature, a living thing that really only needs […]
There is peace all over this earth, but never will I find peace. I don’t belong anywhere, and everywhere I go, all I see is disapointment and isolation. I love this planet, and I love humanity. Thing is, humans with no respect are destroying it and I can’t stand it. It hurts me to see all these animals being mistreated and chopped into food, it hurts to see all this oil and trash in our beautiful seas, all these people starving, these nuclear stations, this poison in our food, the polluted air, wars, fluoride in the water…. I’m just a witness of all this desolation […]