Realisation: I have a sick mind, the rest of my body works fine but it’s my mind that’s sick. This is a strangely liberating thing to find out. That’s all it is…a sick mind. Like my mind is physically sick but everything else works fine. I’ve beat myself constantly since I remember but not having a healthy mind but accepting it’s sick has helped me. I feel I’ve stopped teaching for answers. This whole time I beat myself up, my goodness, how long have I beat myself up for…This whole time…wow. I know the minds important but the rest of the body is just as Important.
I dunno where to start, it’s only a matter of time really. I have weird energy that I’ve had ever since I remember, it’s the only thing I am. Life’s not worth it Really, everyday is such a battle and hell. I don’t know how to make the suffering stop. I have such weird energy and I’m repulsed by it and others are too. Can anyone relate?