So Uh look at my timeline, ohhh how stong I am to make it this long. Its long fulll of bullcrap. QQQQQQW
Worst I’ve been in a while, crap. Just posting to create a timeline.
Just posting again cause I’m alive still. Tracking life I guess.
My destiny is suicide.
Well I’m still around. Just want to post to encourage myself and maybe others to keep trying. Im not sure If Ive gotten any better over the last 8 months. A lot of meds, counselling and quitting addictions and I’m still suicidal.
Oh how wonderful, SSSHHHHHHHHHHhhhhit
Is almost all I think about now.
nope,never,maybe? I’m pretty sure not. I’m going to hell, What a nightmare existence has turned out to be.
I’m still alive. Miracle I can do what I do and function. This is pure pain, and we don’t sleep forever when we die. I’m scared.
Hi everyone don’t mean to boast but I’m still alive. Lets all make it through at least one more day. I promise I will. Thanks for everyone who has helped with kind words. I’m in a better position today than I was even a couple months ago. Dont mean to brag just wanna say thanks to anyone who says kind or helpful words.
I’m still alive and I do good things, Help people, I donate time and money to good causes, I have a part time job. I want to be finished. Why cant I be happy or content. I’m still alive this is weird. Its gotta be almost my time to go.
Still fighting. Lets do it together. Make it through some more days. Try, be good people. Lets do it.
This is pretty tough. So what if I get through the day. and tomorrow. I’m 24 years old and when I’m homeless eventually I will probably have no choice. I’m gonna be the one living with my parents until they kick me out or pass. Then I can pass too. How do we escape this nexus. I know how but I still cant do it. Been a warrior for a while, IDK how much longer I can live, maybe couple weeks.
Total loss of reality. What is going on. I feel pain tho, and happy sometimes. Dont want to be here anymore though.
I attempted again and was in the hospital. The thoughts can kiss my ass, ill fucken fight em forever if I have too. I have people who love me and I love them, so fuck off or keep fucking I don’t care, I’m gonna make it through this life.
I’m still here, you all ever wake up and you feel ok for that one millisecond and then your brain fires up and you just utter the words I’m alive. I may as well tell a little story when I naively tried to overdose on alcohol and pills.
Drug overdose is a very wide spectrum and there is a very good chance that you will not die from them and only cause yourself more pain. I tried drug overdose mixed with a lot of alcohol and my friend walked in on me. I didn’t do a damn thing but humiliate and feel guilt when I had […]
Early tomorrow morning 02/13/14 I’m going to go and try to attempt to jump off a very tall bridge/canyon. I guess I’m here just saying that I don’t know if I’m 100 percent going to actually jump, but there is a very good chance.  Some of you may know a little about myself from my last couple posts. I guess I am just writing this because it may be my last post and I hope all of  you the very best. This site has helped me live a little bit longer and try and get through but there’s just to much pain to endure.
I deserve rest and peace. Please. why, I might do it tomorrow but tonight im to tired. Goodnight everyone. If I do it will be responsibly done quick and easy. Of couse I have Bi polar, of course I suffered childhood trauma, of course I attempted before, of course I cut, of course I have gambling and drinking problems. shit paranoia is the worst. I have paranoia disorder.
I am starting to get scared of myself. Mostly when I think about the future. There is no possible way I can live for even 5 years it seems like. My thoughts are a nightmare sometimes. I have attempted suicide once before but my friend walked in on me after I took only a handful of pills. I don’t want to live in a mental hospital, I feel like jumping everyday. I cant imagine becoming as crazy as I’m scared I might.