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the Brand new Lovesong

by windbreak 7/17/2012

written by windbreak

Oh man… it feels like it’s been so long. These last 2 years have taken everything out of me.. except for my life. I can’t live like this. Not for much longer at least. The days drag on longer and longer. Some days aren’t so bad, but it just keeps coming back. It’s always going to be a part of me. This is who i am now.

I almost got to the point where i didn’t want to jump in front of the bus one day… just that one day. Is it really worth living when you feel like this? You don’t live to be happy.. […]

7/17/2012 0 comment

and in the end…

by windbreak 6/22/2012

written by windbreak

the greatest thief of all is time.

sometimes i feel really lost.Â now that’s all i feel. i just don’t think i belong here. i don’t think i was given a purpose in this world. i’m just another carefree wind, coming and going as i please. if anyone can tell me what i’m supposed to do… please. being the only one who’s justÂ kind of..Â there. nobody ever really notices you. the wall flower. every now and then i think i’ll find something, someone… but there’s nothing left for me. i know now that it’s time to give up. i just don’t have it. but really, i gave up […]

6/22/2012 2 comments

None Left

by windbreak 5/14/2012

written by windbreak

The long, sadÂ story of my self-hate and depression:

I know there’s something wrong with me.. i feel there’s something wrong with me.. there HAS to be something wrong with me. I miss my old self. I miss being normal. I’m just getting more and more pathetic day by day. I can’t really explain what’s happening to me. I try to make sense out of it and i can’t. I’ve heard there’s a period of self-hate during life, but it’s just been getting stronger and stronger. Maybe some people just never grow out of it?

To break it down.. i’m a useless piece of sh_t. I have no […]

5/14/2012 2 comments

eat, drink, be better

by windbreak 4/10/2012

written by windbreak

It’s been a month or more. things have been better i guess. to say that i’m suicidal now isn’t entirely true. i’m not even sure if i ever was. I tried it a couple times, yea, but were they really that serious? i have a hard time inflicting self harm.. i still love the thought of being nonexistant though. i’ve read a few stories on here tonight that really made me think. thanks for that

The smallest things can make a person depressed. i guess my story isn’t the only one full of wonderful things. i couldn’t ask for a better life really.. i just don’t […]

4/10/2012 1 comment

life and death

by windbreak 3/8/2012

written by windbreak

“I’ve always wanted to know what I’d see in the last moment of my life. So I mustn’t close my eyes when I die.”

“I used to think there was some kind of bird that flew and flew, never touching down until it died. But that bird never actually flew anywhere, because it was dead from the very beginning.”

3/8/2012 1 comment

who am i?

by windbreak 2/24/2012

written by windbreak

So this is my first post.. sorry if it’s not very clear or easy to understand. I’m just lost.

So i never thought i would be this way. I had a great childhood, and at 20 i still feel like a kid sometimes. Like a kid that was just testing out the water and all the sudden was pushed in. Except in this imaginary world, i don’t know how to swim. So here i am struggling to stay above water. Now i’m not sure if it’s worth the effort anymore.

To put it simply, i feel so empty inside. I’m sure part of the reason is because […]

2/24/2012 5 comments