I’m thankful there’s a place I can say something before I go, since notes left behind void life insurance benefits.
I am a certified Master Scuba Diver and am about to take my last dive tonight. I found a place in a lake that has 80-lb chunks of limestone at 90ft where I can roll a couple and wedge my arm so it appears I got stuck, and then just wait for my air to run out.
I’m 43, and have lost a lot in life recently, job, wife, mostly due to my bipolar as best I can figure. The suffering has been more than I can continue to handle, so I’m doing something to finally change everything.
I’m hoping my parents will get over my death with as little pain as possible; my wife certainly will. I’ve tried a lot of meds to reduce depression, but in 4yrs treatment, nothing made much of a dent. I leave behind no legacies, and my wife will be in a better financial place than with me alive. I regret all my wrong doings, and figure I’ll be paying for them in whatever is to come. I’m not a holy-roller, but if there’s a “hell-ish” place, I’m most likely gonna be there.
I don’t look at this as a wrong choice though, since my pain & suffering are greater than me. I just view my course as, well … leaving ahead of schedule.