I want to say thanks to everyone on here who as listened and talked to me. Even if you just read my post. Since I started posting on here I haven’t been cutting. Everytime I post something I don’t cut. I feel so much better..in the past few days K have started doing my hair and make up..Again thanks<3
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I have a pretty good life. Other than no friends and the drama I think my life is okay. As I posted before I had a “best friend†overdose on pills because of a fight we got into and the love of my life, at least my teenage love, fucked me over for my “best friend†I have been really depressed, I guess it’s always kind of been there the stuff going on is just what triggered it to start back up again, I was depressed in middle school. I have a 5 year old sister and brother […]
Maybe I will get sleep..Maybe my nightmares will take a break..Oh fuck..who am I kidding? They never will. Off to bed without sleep.
I have had a really rough night..I was relaxed almost all day. Then I got home and my mom started bitching at me and now I just wanna sleep and cry..
I got my stuff back from Dean today..It hurt like hell but now maybe I can put the past behind me and move on. Try to focus on ways to make myself happy.
Now I am just wondering..I can’t cut anymore it’s to noticeable when I am home in shorts and short sleeve shirts..Is there a better place to hide it other then my wrist or a different way to let out my emotional pain […]
Dean just got here to give me my stuff and he gave me back the letters I wrote him:(! I really do wanna cut now but on the other hand if he gave me them back he never really cared so WHY am I so upset:(?
I just got home from school and Dean is bringing me my stuff from his house. He broke my heart but I am still in love with him. I want to cut because once I look at his face I will want to be with him all over again and I can’t do that because I don’t want to be hurt again and its all he does is hurt me..
They say nothing is worth taking your own life but sometimes it feels like the only thing to do..I love my family and what couple “friends” I have but do they love me? I know my baby sister, brother and daughter(NOT biological)do but they aren’t old enough to understand why I hurt and want to die. It’s not fair to them to wonder why sister/mama went away and never came back..They are the ONLY reason I haven’t. I keep thinking maybe if I did one day they would under stand but is it fair? For them to see everyone else upset when they don’t understand? […]
I haven’t told many people what I am going through. Just my mom and she thinks I am over reacting. On here I don’t feel judged so I am going to post it. I have always felt alone even when I had friends, now I have lost all of them. In Middle School I lost my Papa..He was my father figure. I got so depressed I started cutting. My mom found out and got me “help”..It never really helped because if it had I wouldn’t have started again. 🙁 I don’t want to cut but I don’t know what else to do. I had lost […]
FUCK!!!!! I wish I wasn’t at school and could really scream that like I want too! Gosh! I hate how my life is going! UGH! FUCK!
I have been depressed before. I know what it’s like. I have even cut before but nothing has ever hurt as bad as I feel now. I cut again for the first time Sunday night. I hadn’t cut for at least 3 years before, my mom found out and got me help last time. I won’t/can’t let her find out again. I want help but I don’t want to disappoint my mom again. I don’t hate my life I just hate what I a having to deal with. I don’t want to die but I am tired of living. I am not someone who deals […]