I’ve been feeling so bad for a while now like just awful… and this happens when school starts. I just get really deppresed and I get really bad grades because I don’t want to do my homwork becasue I just can’t I mentally and physically can’t. I hate it, because that’s not who I am. I want to go to school and get a good education without having all this fucking stress. I mean I do have deppresion, but my counsler says my deppresion isn’t big enough to take medication. I try to be happy and I just can’t. Like my mind has wiped Happy […]
so it 12:00 in the morning and I can’t sleep, why I have’nt been able to sleep for ages.
as I was was lying awake in my bed I thought about my life and why its worth living, I thought should I just go into my kitchen and take all the pills, or go to my dresser and pull out the razor?
I lyed there and thought why why should I live, when no one seems to care, the only thing I live for are broken promisses, lies and pain.
When I go to school there’s only mean glances and people judeing your every move.
when I get home […]
So it all started in the fifth grade, My uncle had just died from cancer. I was sad of course. I started to wear alot of black. People of course did’nt care all they did was call me gothic and emo. My life was just so stupid, I didn’t know what to do at the age of 10, I had friends but why would I tell them anything? So I just became really isolated and just kept to myself, I thought this was just a new to live life, But then my mom was diagnosed with deppresion and Bipolar, Before that my parent’s split upp, […]