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Zetsumei

I need to accept the reality; either through force or escape. I’m so cold, so numb, so apathetic that I can’t save anyone. Yet, I try for no other reason than boredom. I don’t want to help them, I just do it to make it seem like my life has meaning. In the end, I just make things worse… Because I just don’t care.

Screw it, I’ll just say it already! Anyone that dates/befriends me is asking for trouble, especially on SP. God forbid, someone on here does develop a crush on me… I don’t even want to imagine that horror show…

2/6/2016 5 comments

Cold

by Zetsumei 2/4/2016

written by Zetsumei

I’m tired of this cold world. For you to reject my offered hand with a slap, you’ve made your point clear.

I’ll be leaving later but know this… I would’ve tried my best to keep you afloat. I wouldn’t give up until I got you ashore. I would’ve gave you CPR for as long as you needed. If none of that was possible, I would’ve drowned with you in the icy, cold water, instead of drowning alone like I currently am.

Whatever. It doesn’t matter, anyway. I’m going to trade this cold for something warmer soon… Even if it is burning.

2/4/2016 6 comments

Sorry

by Zetsumei 2/1/2016

written by Zetsumei

I apologize about what I said before in a fit of passion. My emotional detachment wasn’t at its best that day. I realize my error in taking several minutes to compose posts/comments without checking the updates of other posts/comments. Although to be honest, I don’t know why I write most of the stuff I do. It’s not like I’m going to enlighten some government official about how backwards some of the U.S. policies are or get some member to develop a crush on me. Heh, I guess I’m nothing more than a heretic disgusted by their country and species… I feel like laughing.

2/1/2016 3 comments

Everything Burns… In the End

by Zetsumei 1/31/2016

written by Zetsumei

Hello, Father. I never did live up to your expectations… Well, I guess I should thank you for creating me… That is creating this monster that shouldn’t exist! Even if it was just a chemical imbalance, it’s far too late to change anything! This family is already broken. Yet, you are too blinded to realize your actions are doing more harm than good. Enjoy your “freedom”, father.

Hello, Mother. You tell me to ignore the irrationality of father but it doesn’t matter anymore. A madness far worse than depression has already set in. It’s rather funny if you think about it… A one million dollar investment […]

1/31/2016 11 comments

How about a Riddle?

by Zetsumei 1/30/2016

written by Zetsumei

I’m bored so I’m going to make a riddle about the member I’m intrigued by. Although, I doubt she’ll read this, assuming she isn’t already dead. Now for the riddle: “Despite her disinterest in the superficiality and possible triviality of life, I still think she is intriguing. Despite her interest in older men, I do think we are close in age. Despite her view of being damaged, I think she can still shine brilliantly. Even if it is cracked, a gem can still sparkle. Although she has a habit of calling out those she considers “wolves in sheep’s clothing”, I am completely aware I’m not […]

1/30/2016 12 comments

Emailing Someone and Day 7 of Music

by Zetsumei 1/29/2016

written by Zetsumei

Just out of curiosity, is there any way to email members on here? There are some members I wouldn’t mind talking with through email or IM. Ironically, there is even a member that peaked my interest. Granted, I will try to see if it’s possible to see what makes them tick to better understand my insanity… And to see if there is a way out of this labyrinth called madness that doesn’t end in self-sacrifice.

Nevermind the music, I can’t find any other songs besides love songs… Illuminated in the darkness by artificial light, the laughter of madness ringing in my ears, I shall devour my […]

1/29/2016 15 comments

Day 4 of Hypocrisy… I mean Music

by Zetsumei 1/26/2016

written by Zetsumei

Well, here is Day 4 of Music. This one is from a live-action children’s show. Examp- This post has been hijacked by the group, Destructive yet Thought-Provoking Nihilism. Please listen to The Happiness Committee song, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWIjvPuY2jo and en- This post has been retaken by the organization, Censorship of Reality (And Why It Su… Transmission Terminated. Standing By.) Please excuse us while we enlighten our head writer *gunshots heard*… Moving on, please listen to our intended broadcast.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xOEsEmI6X9s

1/26/2016 3 comments

Day 3 of Music

by Zetsumei 1/25/2016

written by Zetsumei

Must resist urge to post depressing music… Must resist…

1/25/2016 4 comments

Day 2 of Music

by Zetsumei 1/23/2016

written by Zetsumei

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dcd1GMoAkXE

The second day of my week long music post. This song is kind of preachy but it does acknowledge life’s difficulties, encouraging to walk forward regardless of the wounds.

1/23/2016 9 comments

The Last Stage

by Zetsumei 1/22/2016

written by Zetsumei

Monday is when I go back to college but I’ve been falling slowly now. My grip on life is getting weaker by the day. Yet, I realized I’m beyond saving, be it by my own strength or another person’s. At the beginning of this forked path, I’ll post every uplifting/encouraging Japanese song I know for a week or so. The first one is Only Human by K, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ppINLeLEnFo. Here’s hoping it helps you more than it did me.

1/22/2016 19 comments

Edible Gauze

by Zetsumei 1/18/2016

written by Zetsumei

I think I found an edible version of gauze… It’s a special Valentine’s version of that marshmallow and caramel candy. The marshmallow is really tough and the caramel is extremely sticky… Also, it doesn’t dissolve in the mouth. One piece alone is about the size of a child’s fist, give or take some width. Ironically, I don’t think trying to choke on candy could be considered suicide… That still won’t stop me from seeing how many I can fit in my mouth at one time.

1/18/2016 2 comments

Drive into Hell

by Zetsumei 1/15/2016

written by Zetsumei

This urge is getting stronger yet my family doesn’t understand why I try to fight it. So what if I’m “useless” by not driving, would crashing into a traffic pole be better? Time after time, I’ve proven I would let everyone drown while watching… Friends, family, every single person… If being human means being empathetic than I’m not human. I’m a monster and I’m done repressing it. Not that I was ever good at repressing it… To be honest, I don’t understand why anyone would be sad at my death. Sorry, everyone. I just needed to vent very badly today.

In less psychopathic news, Alan Rickman […]

1/15/2016 6 comments

Act 3: Insecurities

by Zetsumei 1/9/2016

written by Zetsumei

The curtain rises once again as the group enters the inside of a spaceship.

HDS: Killer clown, zombies, now, it’s a spaceship… I’m sensing a theme here.

Suddenly, robotic claws and aliens reveal themselves from the shadows.

Nicole: Those guns the aliens are holding look weird… They look like cucumbers attached to a toy gun.

Zetsumei: If the flyer I read was accurate, I don’t suggest anyone get caught. At that, Zetsumei takes out several switchblade knives he stole from the graveyard area.

Zetsumei claps his hands once before getting into a running position then says, “Ready…Set…Go!” Zetsumei and the others start running through the aliens and claws. Zetsumei avoids […]

1/9/2016 5 comments

The 13th House: Act 2 – Cannibalism

by Zetsumei 1/5/2016

written by Zetsumei

The curtain rises and the group enters the second area; the graveyard…

Nicole: It’s spooky, you can see graves with our names on it, too. The full moon is pretty, though.

HDS: It’s so cold, though. I can even see my breath!

Rocketman: The last one was a circus-themed maze so what is this one?

Zetsumei picks up a light gun shaped like a revolver and a katana then says, “This looks like a shooting area. Everyone pick your weapons.”

The others pick various bladed weapons and firearms. Although, Rocketman picks up a light gun shaped like a rocket launcher…

Zetsumei: Really?

Rocketman: What? It looks cool. Besides, you’re one to talk […]

1/5/2016 1 comment

The 13th House

by Zetsumei 1/2/2016

written by Zetsumei

Hello, everyone. This is a short play about fear and its meaning. The first act is called Reckoning.

The curtain rises and Zetsumei is seen sitting in a chair and is drinking something in a wine glass while reading a newspaper illuminated by a single light. He then takes out a cell phone and calls several people about a new attraction that opened up recently. The light slowly dims as Zetsumei smirks while the wine glass slips from his fingers and breaks on the ground.

The next day Zetsumei is seen staring at a cliched haunted house attraction then says, “Hello, everyone” before turning around. Zetsumei sees […]

1/2/2016 3 comments

Besides living, what do you fear?

by Zetsumei 1/2/2016

written by Zetsumei

I’m planning on making some horror-themed SP skits and I want to use specific fears. So, what phobia does everyone have? My phobia is pediophobia or fear of dolls…. So, yes… Chucky freaks me out. It will feature lots of black comedy.

1/2/2016 14 comments

Losing Control into a Freefall

by Zetsumei 12/26/2015

written by Zetsumei

Memories are flashing through my head constantly now like a movie stuck on replay. All of my mistakes and superficial triumphs… In an effort to escape them, I resorted to my old self-harm habits: hair pulling, scratching, biting and eye gouging… With the very hand that is trying to rip away the past reflected in the eye above, so will it end the future. I find it ironic that if I came to SP sooner, I might have not “thrown away my ex due to depression” venting on here instead. Oh well… That superficial nymphomaniac probably would have dumped me anyway since I might as […]

12/26/2015 5 comments

Zetsumei’s Eternal Requiem

by Zetsumei 12/19/2015

written by Zetsumei

This is Zetsumei’s character song/poem from my SP anime.

In blackest night,

no light shall reach me.

Gathering the broken,

it’s time for our sinful killing spree!

Konbanwa, Zetsumei here

and Zetsubou’s my game.

You can’t play so face your crime,

’cause time picked you as prey.

The numeral of change engraved deeply

marks the funeral of Humility.

Scattering feathers dyed red,

despair bows Virtue’s head.

Konbanwa, Zetsumei here

and Zetsubou’s my game.

You can’t play so face your crime,

’cause time picked you as prey.

Not even the white moon shines down

so drown in this flood of ash.

Para won’t hear, “Yes, my lord” anymore,

when the hoard is marching ashore.

12/19/2015 3 comments

Can I stop dreaming already?

by Zetsumei 12/17/2015

written by Zetsumei

So, I’m meeting my new counselor today after the old one left. Heh, the current record is 2 out of 3 psychs left now. I wonder if this one will have any luck at getting me to stop lying.

12/17/2015 8 comments

Creepy…Pasta

by Zetsumei 12/11/2015

written by Zetsumei

Once upon a time in a land forgotten by time,

there lived a clown of peculiar taste called Charlie.

Charlie was infamous in his age.

Charlie the Triple C was what people called him.

Dressed in a suit dyed black,

skin a ashy white, lips and nose a dark red,

eyes…sown shut.

Charlie the Cannibalistic, Culinary Clown,

a feared serial killer of his day.

His fall; a single act of kindness

betrayed through manipulation.

An orphan boy once his apprentice

exploited by their targets;

turned on his master.

Charlie, beaten and starved merely smiled at the irony.

His brother turned lover led astray

by the good people of the village.

Yet Charlie felt no anger towards his beloved,

only pity at their loss […]

12/11/2015 1 comment

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