Memories are flashing through my head constantly now like a movie stuck on replay. All of my mistakes and superficial triumphs… In an effort to escape them, I resorted to my old self-harm habits: hair pulling, scratching, biting and eye gouging… With the very hand that is trying to rip away the past reflected in the eye above, so will it end the future. I find it ironic that if I came to SP sooner, I might have not “thrown away my ex due to depression” venting on here instead. Oh well… That superficial nymphomaniac probably would have dumped me anyway since I might as well have been asexual when I met her due to cruel biology. It’s been interesting, everyone. I’m done walking. Maybe in another life, I could have been one of the honest people trying to save you guys/girls from your own demons… Sayonara, minna-san. I hope all of you get what you desire at the end of your journeys even if it’s freedom from life itself.
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@Zets…I missed you posting here friend. It sounds like you are at the end of your rope? Care to share?
Kinda asking myself the same that HDS is saying above. Glad to see you posting again, but wondering what’s up. In a way we all kinda trying to save each other, so whatever you said did make a difference even if you didn’t realize it (or even if it wasn’t intended).
Zetsumei, are you okay today?
Dunno really. I’m starting to get really annoyed with my stupid whims… My habit of messing with my right eye is getting worse now. I actually just stuck my index finger a few centimeters into the corner of my eye. To show I’m not bullshitting, did you know it’s possible to feel your eyeball rotate in the socket? It feels wet and sort of hard like something made of plastic. I feel giddy for some reason… I really should click the “post comment” button before I decide to delete what I just typed…
Nope, you certainly don’t sound okay.