I was at a party. Enjoying the company of my friends. I was so happy and excited. I even dressed up well for the occasion. Then, out of a sudden, I stopped smiling. I wanted to cry and scream. I went home feeling mad. Rapid thoughts. All I could understand was “I want to die.” I want to kill myself. For some reasons, the thought of it calmed me down and at the same time, exhausted me. I could not do it. Which is a good thing, I guess. I’m so tired. I’m going to sleep. Honestly, I hope I won’t wake up. […]