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I often ponder death wondering if its better than dealing with the pain walking around broken beaten and just done death is always the answer that comes to my mind at least it seems like the easy way out
I wanna feel good toooooo….
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I just almost committed suicide… It was… You know how amazing it feels to have that power? To literally hold your life in your hands? The only reason I stopped is because I haven’t told my best friend good byd, and there is no way in Hell I can leave without saying goodbye to my Oppa. As soon as I tell him good bye, I’m outta here.
I suffered a brain injury 5 years ago and came out of it pretty well considering. Last summer I suffered another injury that has caused some of my brain injury to come back along with new problems. I lack impulse control and I’m severely depressed and get angry easily. It’s just a matter of time before that lack of impulse control triggers me to act on my depression. Even without that problem I try and talk myself out of committing suicide. It would be so much easier for this life to be over.
I hate my moods, they never ask permission before they change.
I want to
REFRESH my mind
DELETE all my problems
UNDO all my mistakes
and
SAVE the happy moments
but it’s impossible…
Sorry, don’t mind me that I didn’t reply to you on my previous posts.
Thank you for replying to me. (Both positive and negative response)
I’m going to stop posting on this website temporarily…
All the Best!
Every cut has it’s own story
so..i’ve really fucked up my life. i’m only 14 years old and what can i say about my life? I’m a teenage girl who smokes cigarettes and gets high with her friends almost every day. i self harm (which i started again today :/) and my friends dont even really like me unless they can smoke at my house.
i’m literally so far gone. i just don’t even know what to do anymore.
you know how they say life is a highway? mine’s a dead end. and i’m ready to give up.
right now, it’s late where i am, but i dont sleep anymore. my sleep is filled […]
I don’t even know what to say
Besides the fact I need someone to talk to, someone who understands loss and pain of a massive scale
I know this seems short, I just don’t know what to say
If anyone needs to talk to someone, please, talk to me.
Every few days I go out to get some groceries, as I did today. It isn’t that I don’t want to go out- I do want to feel sun on my face and breathe in fresh air. I need that; I need that most days. But I often find myself unable to get out because I am scared, depressed, feeling trauma – because when I do go out, Â I feel disconnected, anxiety and very lost. As soon as I am done w groceries I head home, and it also gives me anxiety that I have to make the journey home. I am completely lost and […]
im awfully depressed and lonely so if anyone else feels the same heres my email: cinderlilah2@gmail.com I know it’s a stupid email – don’t judge me, I made it when I was nine. So yeah, please talk to me.
I used to know who I was. I was the person that my parents wanted me to be, and I was happy to be that person. But now, I’m not sure who I am or what I’m going to do. I’m lost in life and I don’t want to find my way again, because I am afraid of what will happen if I do. I feel as if I am lost, and just drifting through life. But I don’t know what else there is to it, because this is all that I remember. Cutting is the one thing that I have control over, to just […]
im 17 years old, im not gonna lie ive had a great life good friends, family that love me, i apprecate it all, but i really want to die i just dont want to live i have no reason to kill myself but i feel the need to i feel worthless, alone and ive been sitting in my room for 5 hours now really thinking about just doing it, i have a rope set in my room ready to go, all i have to do is move and ill be gone forever, before i go please someone tell me is it just me who wants […]
My best friend is having a birthday party in a couple weeks but it’s at a water park. My thighs have pink raised scars and there is no hiding those in a bikini. I’m going to try different ways to cover them up and if that doesn’t work I guess will be “sick” that weekend. I would feel really shitty about doing that though. I never thought I would live long enough to have this problem. It’s not like I want to put a damper on everyone’s day by explaining my scars. I hate getting attention. Surprise everyone I’ve found a religion that requires me […]
I’m sick and tired of being alive. Give me a reason not to die. And please, that reason can’t be “Things get better” etc. All of that is bullshit. I don’t believe in that.
I’ve been said things like “You can’t love others if you can’t even love yourself”. I have just a few friends, but none of them understands how I feel. Everyone but one person. She’s like my last reason to be alive. She has suffered a lot more than me, but she takes the time to listen to my problems. One day I know I will lose her. One day I know […]
Life is a battle that we all must eventually lose. Each and every one of us is constantly at war. Fighting for survival. Some have a more difficult battle to fight and some lose before they’re ready…
I guess what I’m saying is that life is difficult. There are so many risks. People die everyday… A lot of people. Death is a part of life. It’s inevitable, but sometimes it comes too soon. The lives of peoples children, peoples mothers or fathers are taken every day without a choice. And here I am… Wanting to throw it away… and for what? What would I benefit from killing […]
Pencil and paper, is that all it takes?
wrong.It takes perfect words
sweet time, a million tears
strength? to write
to pour out your feelings?
to say goodbye?
letting go seems easy
til its written out
onto a clean sheet of paper
the hours you spent writing
searching for the right words
answering questions, that may be inquired
deciding when you should do it
is there ever a perfect time to go?
you’ve written several notes before
but this time it overwhelms you
your train of thought? gone?
your tears? never ending?
death? undecided?
that note will never be read.
at least not for a while.
is it not perfect yet?
or does fear take over?
it’s folded, neatly
slid away with the rest
waiting.
waiting.
for another day
As you can tell from the title this post is about society. Im just writing to say what do you people think about an age gap in relationships. Society doesn’t see anything wrong with a 26 year old going with a 22 year old yet a 17 year old going out with a 13 year old is wrong and nasty. Just wondering what you think about it as a close friend said they really like someone who is 3 years older than them but doesnt want to ask them as she thinks it’s wrong? I see this to but surely it’s no different from a […]
That’s all I ever hear. It’s just a “stage”. Every teenager goes through it at some point. All they want is attention. Lie. It’s all a lie. If this is a “stage” then it’s one long, never ending “stage”.  I’m not a three year old going through the “toddler stage” like every toddler goes through. That’s a “stage”. I’m NOT going through a “STAGE”! this is a lifestyle. A lifestyle we dont want but are given.