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Every night I lay down on my bed and tell myself that I’m not going to do it that I’m stronger than that, but then I break down, the tears start and I cry myself to sleep and every morning I tell myself that that was the last time
I just realized today that almost every decision that I make has two choices, the thing that i want and the right answer, the thing that other people want to hear you say. And I hate that looking at my life now makes me realize that I have never don anything for myself and I rarely get what I want because it has almost become instinct to just say what everyone wants to hear. And this kills me inside because I know that I can try and try to do what everyone else wants me to do but in the end, Im mot making other […]
Watching a world so desperate for answers
Never reaching a common ground
Failing to make things right
In the end it never even mattered
So dance my beautiful puppets
DANCE
I feel so sad, alone, depressed. I try, I really try hard to find something positive in my life. But everytime I start to believe that maybe life will take a turn to the better something bad happens. Something that crushes my spirit. People don’t care how I feel, if I get hurt, if I don’t sleep at night because I cry. Even though they see me falling apart they turn away and pretend that they don’t know. They do what they want to do even though it affects me as well. I don’t understand why I’m not allowed to be happy, why […]
I’m planning on posting my story soonish… but just had a thought… do you think I’ll be able to keep up with my tv episodes in the afterlife? maybe I’ll be too busy for tv anyway? Still that would be a sore point for me if I didn’t know how Pretty Little Liars ends… or if I couldn’t watch season 3 of Continuum… or The Vampire Diaries, or Glee, or Murdoch Mysteries, or Nikita, or The Newsroom, or The Mentalist…
It doesn’t bother me enough to sway my decision… but still, it would be nice to know!
Today i looked in the mirror at myself. A small built girl with big brown sad eyes and long curly hair stared back. She was covered in horizontal scars that ran up both arms and her right leg. Her left arm is covered in healing scabs. White lines from recently healed cuts run across her hips and thighs. Why does she look so sad? Why is she hurting so much? If you stare into her eyes you can see the deep sorrow that fills her very being. Why does she let her demons win? Why does she continue to hurt herself? I dont even recognize […]
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Im 17 years old. 18 on November 22. I just lost my dad on March 22, a little over 4 months ago from liver and kidney disease. I watched him suffer, deteriorate. My hero started needing me for help to do the simplest of tasks.. I had to help him up after the many times he had fallen. But now hes dead. He was in the hospital for a few months before he died so somethimes it doesnt seem like he is gone. But I never wanted to go see him in the hospital. You see his illness made him say some mean things. He […]
Bare with me, I don’t do this kind of thing a lot. Ever, really. I’m 15, female. I started cutting when I was 12. My mom and older brother were fighting all the time, not like arguing either, like throwing chairs at each other. He hit her and made threats. I didn’t feel safe. He pushed me around a little but nothing major. My mom was also mostly living with her abusive boyfriend at the time, staying at his house with his family. I hated that. She left me home with my Bi-Polar drugged out father and younger brother, whom I basically raised. After several […]
do we all have to be so sad?
At this time of night all I can think about is I don’t fit in with this family. My dad got this girlfriend and she has three kids. I’m 21 and they rang from 10 to 12. I get I have to grow up but dam they talk me into these “family” trips. I am not the family type. I love my family but I can’t do the happy family crap. My family if broken and I am trying to keep the little family I have together.I cry a lot more then I use to and my friends have talked to me about how scared […]
My name is Jose Mendivil, personally I have never actually thought of committing suicide though I have been through hardships, I’m a teenager like most people on this page, well it’s not a generalization just most posts I’ve seen are teens, I can help if you just need someone to talk with or someone to just listen, if you want help on changing your mind of suicide email me at UNSTOPPABLE49@HOTMAIL.COM, Put suicide project in the subject, I’ll get to you as soon as I possibly can
I just over dosed on antidepressants. I’m done. A good part of me hopes I don’t wake up tomorrow. Â I don’t know who to tell, I need someone.
whenever someone finds out that I’m a sociopath, they always think I’m a serial killer. They obviously aren’t very bright. I am a violent person, naturally, but I’m proud to say I’ve never gutted another human and worn their skin. Let’s just say I plot. I don’t act out on those plot, but I’m sure they would succeed.
Lately, I’ve lost a lot of things. I lost money from my bank account. I got a B on a test. I wouldn’t care about my idiotic professor’s opinion if it didn’t make a difference on my record. He gave me a fucking B. It deserved an A.
And […]
Many things people think about sociopaths is that they are dishonest, narcissistic, and unremorseful. We are, but I promise you I’ve never killed a puppy. Nor am I a serial killer. I’m most certainly not Mr. Sherlock Holmes. I am very intelligent and clever, though. To be honest, I can fake empathy very well.
Believe it or not, sociopaths can be depressed. I am living proof of that. While I cannot feel sorry for you, I can very well feel sorry for myself. It’s all in the level of psychopathy. I admit it, I’m self centered. I won’t be naive and deny it. My therapist says that […]
My sister and I have not spoken in many years. She hates me she told me she was jealous of me and then moved away and changed her number. When I saw her she was not the same person that I remembered. Everyday I think about her and miss her so very much. She will not call me she will not write me in her world I do not deserve a chance. I always was a good sister to her. To her I was a pain. To me she is everything that I have carried this huge weight […]
In my world, I have to constantly remind myself what’s real and what isn’t, what’s a hallucination and what’s real, and what are rational thoughts and what aren’t. I’ll see a person as an entirely different things. For example, I know that person doesn’t actually look like a dragon, but I see them that way. Or I see a bunch of bees clouding the room, they aren’t actually there, it’s just sleep deprivation. But they seem so real, and no, it’s not “The voices in me head telling me that”. I’ve heard that saying far too often. I’m schizotypal, not schizophrenic. It drives me insane […]
Why do we reach out to those that have harmed us?
Is it somehow an innate desire inside that they will change and see the error of their ways and realize that after years of degrading us, we’re actua lly worth something?
Dad used to scold me for my self-worth being low, but he kept contributing to it by making fun of my weight, or my bleeding issues. Â How could a Registered Nurse be so cruel, knowing, as a biology major, that the health issues I have are pretty severe?
The truth is, they weren’t severe because he didn’t want to foot the doctor bill. Â Years later, they’re […]
Every car looks the same,
It’s time to go.
Breathing trees,
How lovely to see,
Can I touch them?
No.
Locked in, Locked up,
Doors without keys,
Beds without sheets,
Pull on the curtain that encloses me.
Kept alive but no machines,
Three shadows is all you see,
One hall, one sound,
Screams.
We like to stay unseen.
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