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Hey everybody ,I just zanted to say that if someone need help or advices I’m here to help , be strong xx

The feeling you get that is most painful inside and spreads out to your shoulders.

You strain your head and body to suppress it but it just doesn’t quite cut it.

So I made this poem about me. About you. Us.

Strong Together

Just another day inside this war.

A war that will end when we decide.

And the same war that will end even if we don’t.

Though, I need both my hands to grab this weapon.

To just end this war and make it happen.

But both my hands are held by yours.

I can’t even nudge. Not in this war.

We don’t want to stop.

None of us do.

But the pain is endless.

For both […]

It’s been a long time since I’ve felt normal. A long time, my friends, since life has filled my veins and captured me with the sweet essence of the promise of life. Since I’ve been the kind of girl to laugh in the summer sun or lie down in the sweet spring rain. To stop and smell the roses. And I don’t know what I am missing.

Sometimes I feel like an unfinished puzzle, left half completed on the rug of childhood; the girl with the half-life, with the skills to make herself great but without the drive to do so. They call suicide a crime, […]

Today was….a day. I wish I could stop feeling so guilty about things. I wish I wouldn’t stress so much. I wish I could let comments roll off of my back. The thing I can do, and do, to relieve the pressure, to get a high, to stop the thoughts, to be totally engrossed in something other than my thoughts, is cut.

In the past I used my whole left arm. About 30 random scars prove that. But now, I have to hide it more, which means I just keep cutting in the same two spots. I can’t imagine what they will look like […]

just a few seconds ago i wrote that i dont know why i want to kill myself, well, i may have figured out a few things that may be making me feel so fucked up right now but im not going to go into conclusion just yet.

1) i hate myself

i think i should be much much thinner than i am right now. and it has nothing to do with me being fat…or a man. i dont care if a man doesnt finds me attractive as i am now, ive already learned to accept that. but i think if i was skinnier and bonier i would feel […]

What does it even mean when people say “everything will be okay…” It’s such a comforting phrase, but it’s complicated. I used to think that “okay” meant everything would go back to how it was before. That thought got me through so many awful nights, but one day I realized that was never going to happen. I got so upset, I didn’t want okay to mean anything else. Now I’m thinking about it and I still don’t understand. Does it just mean I’ll survive, that this won’t be the end? I don’t just want to be okay. Am I selfish for thinking okay isn’t […]

I don’t know what to do. My therapist convinced me that i should go inpatient at a mental hospital for a week and i agreed that i should go and then the next day i told my parents about it and they convinced me that i don’t need it. I don’t know who to listen to. Do i listen to a trained professional or my parents. need i say that my boyfriend is siding with my therapist. he thinks and his dad thinks that i need to go inpatient because i am to unstable. I don’t know who to listen to. I just feel like […]

I seriously found this site because I was searching “I’m worthless” I have felt worthless for months now. My depression and anxiety have been around ever since my mother died over 2 years ago. Her death did something to me and I honestly feel like I will never be the same. I watched my mother die in hospice care, and will never ever get the image of her last breaths out of my head. I told her it was okay to let go, but truth is I was not ready. I just wanted her to not feel anymore pain. Now I’m here feeling do […]

I’m only 13, my hormones are driving me batshit crazy, I can’t control myself. I can’t help it when I get upset, people just get in the wrong place at the wrong times, and I snap at them, I can be rude, but it’s not my fault! I spent most of my 13th year wishing I wasn’t alive, I’m stressed out, tired all the time, I’m so lonely and restless I just can’t help being irritable. I don’t know what’s wrong with me! I’m so confused, I’m crying one.minute, infuriated the next, and a second later I’m elated. I’m going insane, and I know this […]