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by Sam 5/21/2013

written by Sam

I decided that it’s no longer about living because I have to. I’m going to live because I need to. My mom is currently in intensive care I came home and found her blue from lack of oxygen. She can’t breathe on her own. My mom is everything to me. She came back when I was 12 and saved me and my brothers lifes. I won’t give up until I know she’s fine. I blame a lot of this on myself the lack of oxygen is from to many medications because she was in pain because she was stressed about me. My mom has a […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

by hopefuldreamer 5/21/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

I’m kind of feeling bitter and angryÂ I never realized how badly bullying affected me forget bullying for a moment I remember how bad I felt and whenever I felt it was too much I’d try to go to someone to talk about how it made me feel but nobody seemed to take me seriously and stopped talking but the thing is I guess I started to treat myself badly and I began wishing everything about me was different and whenever I hurt emotionally it kind of brought me satisfaction in someway because I felt like someone would eventually care but it never happened so I […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

An Allegory

by orangish 5/21/2013

written by orangish

Let’s say that you’re going to have a party. You’ve planned it out, know exactly how it’ll go. You’re excited; this is going to be the most perfect party that there ever was.

Then, the guests arrive. As soon as they arrive, they begin criticizing and demeaning their surroundings; the same surroundings you took so much time preparing and setting up for your perfect party. They don’t like the booze, the food you’ve provided, they disparage the music because half of the guests hate the genre you’re playing, and the other half just don’t care. Some of your guests think your sense of style is severely […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Still trying

by DawgMom 5/21/2013

written by DawgMom

Okay. So I finally found another therapist. And, she has way better creditials than the last one. Way fucking better. Plus, she has a way cooler office and she’s way better looking – hehe and 😛 and 😉

So anyway, I’m going to try and hang on. Try and give therapy another chance. I’m sure I’ll keep coming here as I go because the crap I’ll be sorting through will bring me back. SP is a safe place for me – I know some feel otherwise but – it gives me a place to write about the darkest places and thoughts without being judged. Without some […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Numb

by DaysGoneBye 5/21/2013

written by DaysGoneBye

I feel numb again. But I believe this to be good this time around. I am not feeling any pain. I am not feeling any sadness. I just am. Nothing complicated about it. I like this state of mind. I can think clearly.

5/21/2013 1 comment

Why haven’t I killed myself yet?

by tupacorbiggie 5/21/2013

written by tupacorbiggie

My life is a miserable hell. Â I should have been dead like 5 years ago when my life was over. Â My survival instinct pisses me off. Â Why is it so hard to kill yourself?

5/21/2013 6 comments

should i?

by trying to be human 5/21/2013

written by trying to be human

ive been think lately, recently ive been diagnosed with a fatal cancer in the heart. in the first 2 mounths i was really emo and i pretty much cried every night till i accecpted it. that was almost a year now and i really dont have much time left, doctor say bout 1-2 mounths. all of my freinds and family are getting so upset that im dying, and i cant take te fat that im hurting them, the people i love. so i thought i could make there pain go away sooner.

5/21/2013 2 comments

Your definition of Beauty

by Jladd 5/21/2013

written by Jladd

What do you define as beautiful in general?

5/21/2013 16 comments

Vision of beauty?

by Jladd 5/21/2013

written by Jladd

Hey there everyone i have a question what is you definition of ‘Beauty’?

-Jladd

5/21/2013 3 comments

Why me?

by Jladd 5/21/2013

written by Jladd

You are probably sitting alone thinking why me? Why is this happening to me? What did i do to deserve this? Am i being punished? WHY ME? I am Jojo Ladd and i suffer from severe anxiety and depression. Im currently on medication which only seems to be making things worse. I try to tell myself ‘things will get better’ but they never do. But i dont give up because im here for a reason and i had a shitty childhood for a reason and i had to hit rock bottom for a reason. I may not be perfect and have problems and scars but […]

5/21/2013 36 comments

New Job; Cutting; Inadequacies.

by solace 5/21/2013

written by solace

I finally got a job, which is wonderful. It’s helped me get out of the house, fill up my time, keep me busy and not feel so lonely. But the thing is… they are all so judgemental. It brings me down sometimes, I mean if they are talking about others like that, what are they saying about me?

First things first, I am a cutter, however I have always cut my legs, and the ones on my arms are done in such a way that they are either hidden or they just look like an accident. Anyway, there was a girl working for us for about […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

Xanax rocks!

by ctb-driver 5/21/2013

written by ctb-driver

It’s 3:11 am, I’m just hanging out until my Xanax kicks in. To bad all my problem will still be here tomorrow. I really really need to pull the trigger. Since I’ve got only 8 pills left, maybe that sets the date 🙂

5/21/2013 1 comment

Remembering all those Beautiful Souls we’ve lost to Suicide.

by PascelTrees 5/21/2013

written by PascelTrees

To the girl who was called ‘ugly’ by the many people she’d call ‘friends’, we will remember you.

To the boy who’s sexuality made him a target of beating bullies, we will remember you.

To the high school dropout who followed the wrong path of alcohol and drugs, we will remember you.

To the man who had no home, love or hope, we will remember you.

To the woman who lost her husband to cancer, we will remember you.

And to the all the other innocent, pure minds who have taken their lives, we will remember you, and the suffering you have once endured, Is now peace within the heart.

5/21/2013 4 comments

Lay down your head, and close your sleepy eyes.

by celise 5/21/2013

written by celise

I apologise for following such beautiful song lyrics from The Hunger Games with such a negative post.. but I feel this encapsulates the way I’m feeling exactly.

Let me take you on a journey. 19 years ago, my Mother began to emotionally and sometimes physically abuse me over the course of my life. In my eyes, I never had a Mother. I never grew up being nurtured and receiving that maternal, unconditional love. 4 years ago, my Mother physically ‘bashed me up’, in need of a better statement. I left her immediately, I left my little siblings, my friends, comfort, my school, I left EVERYTHING that […]

5/21/2013 2 comments

hi

by casnic419 5/21/2013

written by casnic419

im 18 years old i have tried to commit suicide 22 times i dont know y it just hurts to be Â alive sometimes it unbearable knowing that onone loves u i hate my life my ex tried to put a bullet in his head cause i broke up with him i tried to cut off the tip of my finger i finally met someone like me but it still hurts!

5/21/2013 2 comments

Its always darkest before the dawn

by liveandbreathe 5/21/2013

written by liveandbreathe

So ive never been a blogger or anythig but I would like to share my story so people can relate. When I was younger I was bullied at home and at school. My dad was always very mean to us whicj is sadly common. I was a very sick child and they thought I would die at an early age. I was very skinny where you coul see all my ribs and my eyes sunk in. People often made fun of me at school for being so sick. I was bullied all through elementry school for being ugly,sick, and dumb. Life was very hard for […]

5/21/2013 0 comment

Where do I begin?

by Jessabel 5/21/2013

written by Jessabel

I want to reach out, I really do but I wouldnâ€™t even know where to begin. I am so deeply conflicted. I am so frustrated that I cannot seem to unravel these feelings long enough to really understand them. I must be losing my mind, I canâ€™t concentrate and I take pleasure in absolutely nothing. I hate waking up every day with no interest in a single, solitary activity. There is no song I feel like listening to, no movie I feel like watching, no friend I feel like seeing, no hobby I feel like exploring. I feel as though I canâ€™t survive this self-made […]

5/21/2013 1 comment

little thoughts

by Tormenting Dreams 5/20/2013

written by Tormenting Dreams

A site filled with most of the worlds rejects, and im always rejected.

just that opening line right there is pitiful. for a place to be open and accepting it seems very picky. i dont know it maybe just me, but i always feel on the outside. like right now i have no idea what to say because some many people hate a despise me. i have no life at all, all of my socializing happens online and even there i cant fit in. i really dont have to say much anymore for people to jump down my throat. its like what the fuck, really. everyone […]

5/20/2013 3 comments

Hi

by butterfly_free 5/20/2013

written by butterfly_free

I have nothing clever or profound to write. I’m just sad tonight and lonely and was crying- just pathetic. but it’s the truth. I’m feeling so alone and messed up this week. I was better last week, some stuff happened, nothing major, but it’s completely derailed me. Does that happen to anyone else? It’s so soul destroying. I have to get up off the floor once again.

At least crying made me feel some relief, some pain went away and I can feel a little,. But I was afraid if my brother wasn’t here I was going to run into the woods with the kitchen knife.

So […]

5/20/2013 16 comments

Here I Go… As a child(continued)

by DaysGoneBye 5/20/2013

written by DaysGoneBye

I took care of my mom and sister while she was sick and when we werre moving around alot it was hard to keep our spirits up. And the last few months of my moms life was too hard on me. I moved in with a friend while she was in hospice at my house. She later died in the hospital that i was born in. I didnt move back home until 4months after my moms death.during that time i didnt eat, sleep, or talk. i lived on water. i ran for three hours a day, and cut myself before i went to bed. i […]

5/20/2013 3 comments

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