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by minustwo 4/26/2013

written by minustwo

For the past four years I have sporadically found myself glancing at the final option, and for the last four years I have always immediately retreated from the idea, felt I was foolish to even have considered it. Last week I woke up and took a long look at it. Might not so be terrible. No more collecting shattered expectations. No more painting on a smile. No more cursing the God who created me. It’s starting to sound rather pleasant. Nothingness, not even silence. It would be nice.

4/26/2013 2 comments

my head is currently a scary place to be

by deathlovesme15 4/26/2013

written by deathlovesme15

Hi, my name is Shannon and I am “to far out to find my way back” as I like to say. I have excepted the fact that I may never get better but I never expected to get this bad. Depression is like a roller coaster with up and downs that change so fast that outside life becomes a blur. In short I’m so lost in my own world that I may never find my way out. This scares me more than anything else because my world is like a horror film, full of death and destruction. The one thing that scares me the most […]

4/26/2013 3 comments

The rope

by DawgMom 4/26/2013

written by DawgMom

I just finished the rope rigging. Just about have the house straightened up. I’m tired. If I can fall asleep as I hang, I think it will work.

I smile.

4/26/2013 4 comments

I am loved and I have done nothing good in life to deserve it

by mike.persson 4/26/2013

written by mike.persson

I am new to this site but clearly, spending just a few minutes reviewing posts and the fact that IÂ even landed on this site makesÂ it clear that I have a lot in common with most of the audience here.

My challenge is thatÂ most of the posts are about being blamed our being bullied or about others not perceiving you as being good enough etc….. which I cannot identify with. The reason I hate myself and see no reason for being around is that I hate my depressions and my sadness -Â people looking at my life from the outside would envy the life I have, would envy […]

4/26/2013 1 comment

Out of breaths. But I’m still breathing.

by tearstainedglass 4/26/2013

written by tearstainedglass

I’m not someone who anybody would suspect to be suicidal. I’m 17. I have the top grades in my class. I’m pretty (or so people tell me). I have a great group of friends. I’m popular. I’m funny. I’m well dressed. But at the end of the day, I hate myself. I hate myself more than anyone else could possibly hate me. But I’m still here. Read this and I’ll tell you why.

As I’m typing this tears are streaming down my face. My mom just finished another round of yelling at me to kill myself and how I’m a failure who will never amount to […]

4/26/2013 1 comment

Thinking of ending it.

by Astigea 4/26/2013

written by Astigea

I have reached the a point in my life where certain patterns have repeated themselves. These patterns once thought under control have so gone out of control that the pattern is now a real relative in my life. This pattern at first was just bad emotional output on my part, then the second time occurred and its all the same all over again the exact same way it ended the last time. The last time I lost two very dear things close to me and now I have no chance of ever seeing them again due to my own stupid decision. This time the thing […]

4/26/2013 3 comments

LOVE IS LOUDER

by Love_is_Louder 4/25/2013

written by Love_is_Louder

Dear Reader,

My Grandpa committed suicide when he was 75 years old. He took his life in 2005, and my Dad found him. My Father. found. him! I, a 15 year old, watched as my Dad crumbled into a million pieces, literally broke down. A 6’3″ italian goomba fell to his knees in pain over the loss of his own father. My grandma was frozen in shock, numb to the fact her husband (going on 50 years) was no longer coming home after work, or bringing her white daisy’s on Sundays, or laughing to get her to smile. He was gone. Forever.

My grandpa had three beautiful […]

4/25/2013 1 comment

I Have A Plan

by EndOfInnocence 4/25/2013

written by EndOfInnocence

One score years ago a baby was born. 20 years later he lives in misery. 20 years later his life is hopeless. I have come to the end. I have a plan. I will drive down to see her this summer one last time. If things do not work out, I will end it, gun to the head. I’m not afraid now. I’ll be free at last.

4/25/2013 0 comment

hatred

by Barathy 4/25/2013

written by Barathy

i’m sorry about what you all are going through. i’ve had a horrible uncurable mental illness for years. Â my life has been pretty cruel. i was subjected to a hate crime that was pretty Â much endless. i was happy once but i cannot find it again. my illness is very very cruel, l live with it everyday. Â its very painful and hurts me very badly and i also believe i’m going to hell when i die. i’m not a religious person but this world was very harmful. we should believe that life was not supposed to be so HARMFUL to people but it was. i […]

4/25/2013 1 comment

visions

by kristink 4/25/2013

written by kristink

having these strange “visions” popping up in my head. i see myself floating face down in the river. i see myself with a gun shot wound. i see myself at my funeral. all of these images are just coming in it seems at random. i am not consciously thinking about suicide. but apparently some part of me is. the interesting part is that i am not afraid of these thoughts. i am not upset by them. they are just there. potential outcomes. seems odd that these thoughts have become mundane almost. nothing new under the sun. so what, who cares?Â maybe i am just becoming […]

4/25/2013 1 comment

Facebook Page Admin

by Miss Blythe 4/25/2013

written by Miss Blythe

havent been on in ages…stopped wanting to talk about things.

i just wanted to suggest a facebook page i just became an admin on. “For the unloved” is for people who feel unwanted, or like nobody cares. For people who need to talk, or rant, or rage. Please like our page.

4/25/2013 1 comment

Chronically Lost and Confused

by wishful thinking 4/25/2013

written by wishful thinking

I, like most people here, am looking for answers that we all know don’t exist. Â Despite that we all continue, we push on with blind faith, hoping, wishing, praying that the answers will just suddenly appear before us. Â But I have lost my faith and hope and my wishes and prayers go without response.

I am now 45, and I have been struggling with depression ever since I was 17. Â It has been a long and exhausting trip. Â It has caused me to lose all of my friends, resulted in me being hospitalized for a total of 3 months between high school and college. Â Â And […]

4/25/2013 5 comments

Wish there was a switch

by ShyGuy1986 4/25/2013

written by ShyGuy1986

Right now, the only thing that’s keeping me alive is the fact that any kind of suicide attempt has a potentially devastating chance of failure. Pills, guns, jumping… everything terrifies me. I keep having flashes of how disastrously each kind of attempt could go, and I don’t have the courage to try any of them. I wish I was less scared of pain. I thought pills would work for a while. I thought sleeping pills would put you to sleep and then kill you gently in your sleep! Can you believe how naive I was? Then I read about how they make you puke, and […]

4/25/2013 6 comments

Positivity

by JenniferGrace 4/25/2013

written by JenniferGrace

Hi everyone,

I’ve read most of your stories, and they’ve made me quiver. Your life should never be thought as negative. You were put on this earth for a reason. If you say you’re not loved, you’re wrong. So many people have the biggest hearts and would love to get to know you if you allowe yourselfÂ to open up. I know you have been hurt by someone in the past that allows you to put a wall up, but being vulnerable is a beautiful thing. It allows you to feel something, rather than nothing. Even if it feels like you’re not worth something, you are worth […]

4/25/2013 0 comment

BNL

by girl interrupted 4/25/2013

written by girl interrupted

I climb the walls of my mind just like I’m climbing
On the jungle gym.
I am more than content with the
State of mind I am in.
’cause I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy just like you.

I don’t think I need a rubber room, but that might be nice.
I’m not a manic depressive paranoid or schizophrenic
So I don’t need your advice.
I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy just like you.

The lights are on but nobody’s home
My elevator doesn’t go to the top
I’m not playing with a full deck I’ve lost my marbles.

4/25/2013 1 comment

Just do it

by DawgMom 4/25/2013

written by DawgMom

I think it’s about time. There are people I love and were talking to – I wanted to talk to – but not anymore. I have nothing more to say.

My therapist called the police on me today. Rather than talk with me about whatever the fuck she thought they would do she just sends them over. I was shaking. Did she think I would tell them? Did she think they could do something? What? Nothing unless I would have said I was going to kill myself. They asked if I just wanted attention. That sounded good so, yeah, sure. If it would get […]

4/25/2013 1 comment

given up

by aroxx666 4/25/2013

written by aroxx666

he wakes up after an hour of sleep to the screams of something else he didnt do he cant sleep at night because memories are so fresh in his mind of a life destroyed by abandonment and drugs but the drugs are a crutch now without them you feel worse more hopeless then before and it seems like suicide is a viable option..maybe it is..everyone you talk to thinks you want attention because they are to blind or to stupid to see the pain really felt..he feels lost in the world and he has given up hope

4/25/2013 1 comment

Dreams…

by Only-Here-For-My-Family 4/25/2013

written by Only-Here-For-My-Family

Last night I had the strangest dream I’ve ever known before
I dreamed that all the world agreed to put an end to war
I dreamed I saw a mighty room, the room was filled with men
And the papers they were signing said they’d never fight again

And when the papers were all signed, and a million copies made
They all shook hands and bowed their heads and grateful prayers were prayed
And the people in the streets below were dancing round and round
While swords and guns and uniforms lay scattered on the ground

Last night I had the strangest dream I’ve ever known before

4/25/2013 3 comments

by angelina 4/25/2013

written by angelina

Its the sadness and anxiety I can’t overcome. The overwhelming feeling of loss and abandonment. I don’t know what to do. All I want to do is eat a gun. I want him back so bad but he still needs time to think things through. It’s hard not kissing him and touching him. He doesn’t want me. I feel so empty so defeated. It’s a pain I’ve never felt before and I don’t recommend it to anyone. It’s like a piece of me has been taken away and no matter how hard I try I can’t get it back. It sucks. I feel like shit. […]

4/25/2013 2 comments

i ruined my life

by tippayarat 4/25/2013

written by tippayarat

hey

i’ve just been diagnosed with bipolar disorder

and i tried to od on anti depression pill

i failed the interview exam for university my mom expect

before all this things

i had been a good daughter good student

i went to the best prep school in my country

now i’ve just all alone in my room for a month

while all my friend being a freshman and succesful

i’ve just recover from anorexia and i binge everyday

now iam so fat and dont want to see my old friends

i really missed them 🙁

4/25/2013 6 comments

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