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Man, I don’t even have a fucking reason to be depressed. So why the hell am I?! I feel so shitty and alone because everyone has legitimate reasons for why they are depressed in life, and here I am. Just some ignorant kid that doesn’t appreciate the good things.
Hi,
My username is an anagram so if any of you care to do a little word play, you can figure out my real name, but thats not why I am here. I am here to tell you, the reader, a story. A story about me and why I want to die, yet cannot achieve presently.
I was born January 25, 1987. My mother was a drunk at the time and my father was smoking crank. I am the result of a one night stand. An accident turned paternal, if you will. My very first thought, I remember, was when I was still an infant, unable to […]
Ever have that problem where you want to help someone really badly, but you have no clue how to do it because you can relate to them just a little too well?
I’m off to see the wizard. Maybe he can give me a brain.
I thought I would be happy with more free time but I think everything is just getting worse. It’s just more time to sit and wallow about all of the mistakes I have made and all of the people who hate me. It’s more time to sit and realize how lonely I am and that nobody wants me. It’s more time to think about the fact that my life is empty and that there is really nobody who values me for me. Matt says he does and I think that he believes he does but he doesn’t really know. He doesn’t know what a miserable […]
I cant believe it. We haven’t seen each other all because of life.. I hate life. Every time I see you I feel the tears coming and inside I just remember when we were little and we had all the time in the world.. But now we’ve grown apart and im not okay with that and im not going to let it happen because of Life.. Man fuck life.. I wish we could go back to the old days because now you have no time and all because of what you need to do.. Including school, family, relationship But, damn I thought I was your […]
I keep all my emotions and secrets bottled up because once family finds out im probably going to the hospital and I’m not letting that happen.. Its probably not okay but I try and soon the bottle will bust and I will become nothing and disappear..
“I know you’re somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
My neighbors think
I’m crazy
But they don’t understand
You’re all I have
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon.
Try to get to You
In hopes you’re on
the other side
Talking to me too.
Or Am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon?”
You are clueless to what you have done to me, i was suppose to be a loner it felt like.. Least thats what i felt like.
Then i saw you looking at me over there beyond the chain-link fence with your friends, i’m over here wondering, watching. “Who are you?” i ask to myself. She comes over to me and what i thought were my “friends” slowly but surely, i clicked with you.. And you clicked with me. She is a interesting person i thought to myself, mildly shady background.. But i just felt like i knew her somewhere, Sure enough i start coming to your house, hanging […]
Hi! My name is Michael but, everyone calls me mike. Anyway I was born on September 9th. At 6 weeks old both of my drug attic parents left me at my grand parents. It was pretty rough.. They bought me things and my parents try to make it up by buying things I liked but,,it filled the hole for so long then the hole in my heart was bigger and the stuff I had liked wash flushed out. I only had 3 friends really and the rest said they were my friends but they really weren’t.. Their was CJ, Russell, and Veronica. I also had my dog […]
I really wish it was over…
No one REALLY cares..
have been called “worthless, forever alone, no one likes you!!”
I could vanish and no one will notice..
I cant cope any more..
It needs to END.
I have lost the last reason I ever had.
It wont get better.
I need someone. If there’s anyone..
:'(
Two people I follow and comment regularly on IG to have attempted suicide today. One succeed yesterday. I feel like a failure because when I tried, I failed. I really wish I hadnt. I have no one to talk to now because my boyfriend just left because he bought a stupid new game. Hes obviously upset about something right now… I dont know what. He wont tell me. But I kinda need him right now and he just got up and stopped talking to me because of his stupid game. Im selfish for saying that. He can never tell when I need him. Right now I need him. And […]
I know I’m suicidal, and I’ve known for a really long time. I’ve decided that I want to try living. I’ve decided that getting professional help is worth risking my personal freedoms and future ability to end it if it isn’t worth it. But I don’t know how I should go about getting help.
I’ve always been the trouble child while my older sister was the only one who ever had any actual problems. Inevitably everything that goes wrong in my life has been my fault, and I’ve been idiot-savant enough to coast through elementary, middle, and high school. I even got into a pretty good […]
Heey,
Im a 15 yr old girl who has been depressed for quite some time. I dont really know how to start this so I appologize if this seems to be “jumbled”, as that’s how my mind has been lately. I guess my depression really sunk in almost 4 years ago when my dad, irronically enough, commited suicide. Now I know what everyone will think, “that’s obviously why she’s depressed and that’s a normal response to such a tragedy.” Believe me, I’ve heard it all before. Now, I won’t go in to details, for that would take too long, but I did have a very […]
Tortured. Yet not. Why do I feel so alone. Why do I still want to die. Why. Why. I’m a why kind of girl. Why don’t you care? Why does everyone hate me? Why do people lie when I know the truth? I carry around that noose.. Waiting for something to set me off. Waiting for that perfect timing to set in. Wanting it to be now instead of later. When the time comes.. Will I do it? Will I jump? Will I fall? I mean.. I’ve already fallen. And hit the ground hard. I’m broken. And people say I have no fucking reason to hate myself. […]
I hate feeling like this every day. I hate never wanting to get out of bed. I hate knowing that things will never get better no matter how hard I try. I hate knowing that I was doomed from the start to end up like this. I hate how other girls  whine and complain about how terrible their lives are, and yet they have boyfriends. Like, seriously, SHUT UP. At least SOMEONE cares. At least you have enough luck that guys are willing to be seen in public with you and you still have the hope of a happy ending. I have no hope. I have no […]
I literally can’t cry anymore. 8th grade year I cried so much that I think all my tears dissapeared. I don’t cry on the outside, I cry on the inside. I hurt so much on the inside, but I don’t show any appearance of it on the outside. Like, the emotions and feelings are there, but I just can’t let them out. They’re dying to escape my body, but I won’t let them. I’m not a loving person, and I’m definetly not endearing. I just want to hide, or crawl under a dark rock for awhile and have time to myself, ya know? Nobody at school […]
In all honestly, what is the point of living?
I feel quite depressed  but I guess that’s okay since I managed to be alright the past week. I’ve been walking mindlessly through the present and haven’t thought of the future , I don’t know what I was thinking I guess I just thought things were getting better though I was wrong, what was I thinking. Reality slapped me in the face the school year’s almost over and I’m still in the same place I was when it started and I’m feeling even worse than freshman year, I can’t bury my feelings as well as I could last year and my grades have slacked, and […]
I see people end it all around me
its suffocating knowing your next but in some way saying yer its cool I can do this I don’t care
shoot me now for all I know im a drunk hiy fool in a life he never deserved so tonight next week moths time ill be gone unless I fined some thing worth doing… this for……. if im honest I don’t know what to do now nor what im doing now for fuck sake iv lost it all all it takes is one biff and bye bye mother fuckers im off I don’t know why I bother doing aney thingin […]
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