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Hello .
I am turned 20 this january.
I used to be a very happy carefree person till i was 18. My life was perfect .I got everything I ever wanted .My parents are rich and I had good friends.
I started my degree in 2010 and studied 1 year at the university. It was a doctorate degree and I studied really hard that whole one year. My friends were awesome .After an year when i had a final exam,my parents told me that i have to quit studying there because we are moving away to a new city. I didnt study for my exam […]

And people wonder why we would want out of this world. A bombing at the Boston Marathon? Really? Why do these tragedies keep happening? How is everyone else so well-adjusted? How can you look at all this horror and violence and not weep for humanity? It disgusts me that I live in such a place, that I am called a member of this species. It isn’t selfish to commit suicide. It’s smart. Do people not realize it’s only getting worse? We can try everything to make this planet livable, but it doesn’t work. I hate it here. Suffering and pain just shouldn’t exist, and I can’t […]

I’m a 26 year old guy who has a paralyzing, crippling fear of intimate physical contact.  The idea of hugging makes me ill, and the thought of actually having sex is once of the most terrifying violations of my personal space I could imagine.  I hate myself for feeling like this, because while I am utterly terrified, I want these things more than life itself.

I’ve tried almost a decade of therapy and drugs with no effect.  The bottom line is always: “Just go out there and expose yourself to it.  It’s the only way to get used to it.”

How?  I don’t have any friends, and […]

self-hate, self-harm,
cutting on your arm,
just a few more little scars.
beautiful as the stars,
but you will never see,
how you look to me.
your my definition,
of beauty, and pretty.
I love the way you are,
i even love your scars.
i’ll love you to the end.
cause your my everythin.
if you ever go,
or if you stray away,
i’ll be on my knees,
beggin you to stay.
Girl, listen to these words,
i’ve tried to write them well.
i love you girl,
more than you can tell.
An’ I guess my main point is,
that your all i’ll ever need.

i’ve lost most of my friends because i lied to them, bitched about them and chose others over them. and i completely regret that. i wish they could see that i’ve changed. i was so immature back then, and now i’m a completely different person. i get bullied so much at school and i find that sel

Since I was 13, I don’t feel like living anymore, the idea of committing suicide comes back to me from time to time. Now, I’m 27, I still always feel so lonely, and the unhappy feeling seems to be so strong that I can’t take anymore. I always think that if I can choose not to have any happiness in order to exchange for experiencing no sadness anymore, I must take this. Then I think I’m up for a suicide plan. But my parents love me so much that I always don’t want to break their heart, as I know how bad a person would […]

Im back for a little while with a just passing by. I want to say things have changed but suicide is like a virus without cure, once in never out! For me its a back up plan for now. I wish life has never gotten me where im standing right now. One day, maybe one day, ill be rid of this feeling and able to live a normal life again. Im just not dying yet, i know ill feel the right time when it presents itself to me. Will be off again for a while… will be on again sometime!

Love you guys, all of you… […]

Ever get lost in the lie of pretending you’re ok?

like living in a dream then waking up?

or committing to something to just to break that commitment a day later?

it sucks

makes me wonder what can i do

living behind a mask being ok when your not, so is it to be ok when you’re not ok but you believe you are?

i dunno

I fell in love with a player. I though he cared, and wanted me. I found out later on he didnt and slept with about 3 girls behind my back then claimed he loved me. When i found this out i went to a depression and dying is all i think about now, all because i fell in love. I hate love and the feeling i get when i think about what has happened. LIfe is Hell!!

Life=Shit 😉

Of life and everything. I had a break down back in September and since then my world has fallen apart. Very soon I will be left with £38 a week to live on, and that will reduce soon enough. Life just isn’t fair. I need to feel alive otherwise what is the point in being here? I don’t enjoy anything any more. I wish I could just flip a switch and exist no more. Even my care co-ordinator has given up on me. Back to planning again – suicide isn’t easy.

Having the shittiest time of my life… Does anyone care? None of my friends do. My gf (now ex gf) cheated on me. i started cutting again, and none of my friends give a fuck about me. whats the point of me still living? I wonder how much u have to drink to die from alcohol poisoning…

Numb and empty with no hope of a change of status quo. Knowing fully well that you may make it if you try but being so fucking lazy to get off the freaking bed. Yea thats me. Saint lesswill. Incapacitated by a love long gone

I am still alive, told y’all that it would take a power much more supernatural and sophisticated to keep me this way. Well you ve got it there.i am still breathing.

Is it just me? Whenever I try to reach out for any kind of human interaction it backfires. Why does no one want to be my friend? Right now I feel like I’m worth nothing. The people around me don’t care about what I’m going through. Everyone thinks I’m okay. No one ever notices how much I’m hurting. It’s so hard to keep living. My heart aches in my chest from pain and sadness, and I want to try and cry to soothe myself, but I’ve cried so much these past few days that no tears are coming to my eyes today. I feel suicidal […]

I need help. I have talked to three different people and none seem to help. One was way to religious for me and the other was to like dont worry you’ll be okay and the other was telling me to run away. Like cant anyone help me. I’m dying on the inside over here and no one seems to notice or care or understand what to say. Like I my god just is it that hard to make me slightly steel better.

I thought maybe, just maybe, I could be someone on this site. That I could matter to a few people here. But I was wrong. Nobody gives a shit about me anywhere else, so I don’t know why I expected it to be any different here.

Hello!

Sadly I can not post my name because many people would be upset if they knew I did this. I need a friend. I have been bullied from grade 1, almost strangled to death in grade 3, and was threatened to be killed in grade 5. I am in grade 7, and not more than 2 weeks ago I was beat by my “best friend” with a baseball bat. I always have to wonder if things will ever get better. I wonder anyone miss me when I’m gone. Maybe a few. I think most would say “good riddance”. I’ve had a rough past few weeks, […]

I’ve gotten sick of cutting, well really, I don’t feel like cutting tonight, it’s been feeling less and less painful each night recently,  I need something else to do. So I grabbed an old bottle of pills and started swallowing them, I’ve only had eight, so it’s not like I’m gonna die or anything, but I hope I’ll wake up in pain tomorrow morning, it’s what I deserve anyway. In the meantime, I’ll cut for what little pain it still has to offer.  Night then.