General

Fuck your lies. No offense to Gaia, but I’ve wanted to get off this planet for decades. Fuck your illusions, your wargames, your stupid tech, your amusements, and your apathy. You’re lame in your torture, pathetic in all executions, even with the resources your oppression truly does cause me to romanticise my eventual death… All this fucking pain I go through because all the right people are dying for the wrong reasons… Yeah, I want to quit. I want to just grab that blade and end Me… But that’s where the real pain comes in… As much as I want to fucking die I can’t […]

That’s me.

stop all of the dreams
and start all the nightmares
in my head
if this is what life means,
i’d rather be dead.

shut off the world,
turn off the lights
this is your time dear
you go tonight
write your goodbyes,
and say your last words.
pick up the knife,
ignore how it hurts

Scream!
into the night!
this is your time,
spread your wings
prepare for the flight!
darling i’m jealous!
cause you get to die!
and i’m left drowning,
here in the lies.
i can’t open my eyes.
the dream is permanent.
i cannot escape from it.
eternally sleeping.
never will i wake up.

I am completely alone, all day every day, unable to do anything because I feel so sick, in unbearable pain, unable to think or concentrate at all. Even just writing this is taking so much out of me. Oh, and the air conditioning’s been broken all week so it’s 90 degrees in the house.

I have literally just been laying in bed in the dark in the same position the entire day, doing nothing at all except trying to survive and occasionally crying because things are so unbearable. I don’t think there’s anyone who cares at all.

I literally just cannot do this anymore.

I’ve […]

Any one that wants to talk please email me

solace_@hotmail.com