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So I’m pretty interested in the exit bag I’ve been hearing about and looking it up seeing how it works. I just need help with a little more info. Apparently the lady who sold the kits got raided by the FBI so you can’t get the kits anymore. I was just wondering what size tank do you need? How much constant flow needs to come out? And like do some places sell more pure helium than others? And information would be good on the tanks and set up

I have so many people who love me, but I don’t see why! I hate myself, I hate my hair my skin, my everything. I just want to zone out completely. No one knows this because I keep a brave face on but I just want to try and kill myself but not quite succeed, just so then people will know. What’s a good way to do that?

How is everyone doing tonight? I’m just about ready for bed. I haven’t been on the forum much lately, but just letting everyone know that I’m okay. I have this week off (march break) so I’ll be posting more this week. Stay Safe. 🙂

^yupp…………………………………………. my world is completely empty now..cuz im that much of a fuck up.

To everyone out there that feels alone and feels like nobody cares…I care.

I know what it’s like to feel abandoned by those you trusted the most. I know what it feels like to have even your own family members act like they don’t care. I know how it feels to be unloved.

So please, PLEASE, don’t  do anything rash or dangerous. Unlike those fake friends that say they’re “here for you” I really am here for everyone. I hope that people read this and understand that they’re not alone, and that no matter how tough life gets, it gets better; MUCH better.

I’m always here for anybody […]

u know me better than anyone else does. i have pushed you away today and im sorry. extremely sorry. sometimes i wish we werent far apart. sometimes i wish i could just say “i need a hug” and ud be right there holding out ur arms. sometimes i wish i could just walk down to your house to escape mine. sometimes i wish we could laugh about stuff no one else knows about. sometimes i wish i could walk up too you and you’d automatically know whats wrong. sometimes i wish i can just have you right next to me all the fucking time.

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watching through windows
that people call eyes,
sit and stare blankly
as the world starts it’s demise
it puts people of hate upon it’s crust.
it watches and waits as they hunger and lust.
they lust for my blood,
they lust for my soul,
they seek to take both,
and leave a big hole.
taking my love,
taking my life,
taking my very will to survive.
I listen to people
plot their revenge.
Hear them plan out a dastardly plan,
“we’ll tear off her limbs
one
by
one
start with her toes and then to her thumb”
they plot their murder,
make it just right.

I have been thinking a lot about this.

Why many health professionals say you should help someone who is suicidal, but nobody cares about other things that a person can suffer from in our societies. Why there is this huge focus on preventing suicide? Why they are spending so much on preventing suicide? I don’t understand why everyone thinks that ending our lives is not good. I think if someone wants to end should be free from all the judges and etc.Why you should hide your feelings about this from the people around you, only because people will judge you and it might affect your final […]

I woke up today and just wanted to end it all. Im so alone and feel so broken. I wake up everyday and ask god why i put myself through it. I dont wanna be alone and watch the only person ive ever loved be with someone else. I was with him for 3 years and now all he wants us to be is fuck buddies? meanwhile he has a girlfriend whos addictied to heroine and has cheated on him 4 times in 5 months! Whats wrong with me?? Why would he rather be with someone like her but not me? i guess im just […]

I’m stressed. I’m crying. I’m a fucking loser like always. damnit. now why did haliey have to come into my life and make me fall in love. and why did alex have to come in and make me love him too. and then why did hayliey have to leave. and then why does alex have to leave. WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE TO LEAVE??? is it amusing to see me cry. it prolly is. damnit. I’m just a stupid emo who likes girls and guys and has a strange fear of men in bunny suits (don’t ask) who thinks of dying like it’s a hobby, who […]

duh , that is what i feel like right now…. severely demented… i can’t think straight . i think i am past the point of redemption…. i just wanna scream out loud from the top of the tallest building. But do i want to jump off it,  I don’t know, not right now…. i am not yet in that phase of my depression cycle. I know i sound crazy and i know nobody cares… right now i don’t care that nobody cares. all i wanna do is weep  my heart out, wash out the madness. run away from all this…. i want to live a […]

ones apon a time in a make belev relm calld England a wise man calld will shakespeare said in a play calld “as you like it” this

all the worlds a stage and all the men and woman are merly actors who have ther entrncs and exsits

well that was a clever thing that he said but it was wong

cos if life is a play its all inprovised cos we dont folow a script and thinks dont get magcly beter at the end of the finel seen i can if your like me get wors

Now I lay me down to sleep I pray there is a soul to keep Maybe I’ll die before I wake And there will be a soul to take. My heart is numb, My tears are gone, I’m tired of the same old song. I’m tired of the nonstop fear, I’m tired of knowing you’ll leave me here. You say we’ll live a happy life, But i can tell that that’s a lie. You say you love me every day, But it’s just a game of House you play. You’re getting tired of my shit, Of all the tears, the hissy fits. I love my […]

On Wednesday, my boyfriend began cutting. He has 5-10 cuts on his right arm :l now he’s going to sessions and therapy for help, but I dont know what I can do to help him. I want to help, but how can I?

we are a army

not of fit fighting men and women

but a ragtag band of brothers and sisters

the scar calist is are armor

the razors we ones cut with are now reforged in to swords

are shields are ower experience with life and pane

and let me tell you that the meantel image is one of beauty and fear

now is are time

now is the sing

we will all sing the same rime

a rime that will remind us that thay were wrong

well are strong see us a wall of strength vs that vous in you head that bully from shool the girl that hornts your dreams

to Meany of us have all ready fallen […]