u know me better than anyone else does. i have pushed you away today and im sorry. extremely sorry. sometimes i wish we werent far apart. sometimes i wish i could just say “i need a hug” and ud be right there holding out ur arms. sometimes i wish i could just walk down to your house to escape mine. sometimes i wish we could laugh about stuff no one else knows about. sometimes i wish i could walk up too you and you’d automatically know whats wrong. sometimes i wish i can just have you right next to me all the fucking time.
i have given up on everyone except you. i need you. i dont care what it takes to keep you. today was the shittiest day ever just like yesterday. just like everyday. i dont really know my issue with you. I know that you will always be my best friend. i know that you can piss me off so badly but i’ll still love you. always.
sometimes when im a ***** to you it just means i thought a lot about how it would be if i can just have you next to me. and oddly enough it hurts me deeply. cuz i know it will prolly never happen. this is crushing me..but its not crushing me as much as it would if i pushed it to far today if i did lose you like i said i wanted too. i dont. I FUCKING NEED YOU. i love you. i fucking need a towel so i dont ruin my computer. thats how much im crying.
i love you best friend. <3