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i kinda give up on suicide attempts my life is no longer that bad BUT of course its like ive grown addicted to the sadness i felt so long it wont leave so i cut..and cut..and Cut and…CUT..til i cant take nothing then i cry and wish everything was ok…but that will never be

I was wondering if anyone has hear from RheaMartin at all recently. I wasn’t too fond of her last post. I hope everything is okay.

Let us know how you are.

Cancer sucks  when the person you  look up too has it.

mom.

I try my hardest but I can’t stop her pain. Her pain is my pain. It’s hurts.

I love you mom. I lie, fight and more with you but I truly love you.

You don’t realize that you hurt me though. C heck under my braclets. I have the marks my pain. You don’t notice because you smile when you wanna cry. You can cry, I cry too…

I cut & hide. I’m worthless. I can’t find the light, and when I do its very dim. I can’t find my way. Whatever I do I can’t I don’t succeed  I never do.

My first message was to be “to anyone who loved me, I am sorry” but that does little to explain my thoughts, and those who love me deserve at least a glimpse.

I can’t imagine a better summer then the one that just passed.  Europe was quite lovely, I wish I could move there.  I smoked, I loved, I laughed. But summer is over and every year the winter seems worse than the previous one. I thought things were turning around, but autumn starts and I’m already falling again.

To Jill- I hope you don’t feel any guilt for this is not your fault.  I have only […]

They take away my books my jounals saying, “They’re what make you fail” All I want to do is yell the truth. You are what’s making me fail your the cause of my fucking suffering. YOU ruin everything, you make me die. But I stay silent. I always stay silent. Never say no, they always say. You dont know how much I’ve cried, cut, and starved myself, I’m dying and I know it, but I don’t want to stop, I want to die. Maybe I need to bleed out instead let it be faster. Let me die in peace and not your horrid screaming.

I try to smile, and say I’m fine. It’s ust getting harder to do. I’m cutting more then offen, and I’m cutting deeper. The blood gushes out and I feel better but only for a hour or two. Maybe I should just die, just let me bleed to death. I’m sick of being that perfect girl but I can’t seem to let go. I want to but I can’t. I need all the prizes, trips, awards, and fake love. It’s what’s killing me and keeping me alive.

talked it over and decided it was a good idea to get some outside help for a few days.  I’ll probably be off the grid. maybe it will help…maybe at least get some sleep.

Me and my friend gabby have decided today that we are going to kill ourselves. We dont know when but we both are going to go together. We just feel that no one cares enough and that no once would mind if we were gone. My boyfriend would but i barely see him anymore and being away from him is killing me but just incase someone reads this after i die.. he is not the reason for my final act. if anything he kept moving the date farther and farther forward. I just feel like i cant see a future with me in it. almost […]

I dont cut. thinking about it. I dont do any self-harm. i think about it. a lot. I only attempted suicide once. I took a whole pill bottle of idk what. but i failed and just got super sick. i felt like dying. wish i did. Let me go.

I messed up so many times with the same damn people. They once cared for me. I ruined their love and care for me. I hurt them, let alone, myself. I lost what i had. I dont deserve anybody in my life, therefore i should be alone. I hide EVERYTHING behind a joke and i’ve been considering that I AM A JOKE. I already been told that i should “die already!” by my own sister. She hates me because i joke too much. I hate how i am. I am untalented, hopeless, useless, unsmart, and worthless. I am NO advantage to anyone, not even my family. […]