General

I have already made three posts. Two were poems, and one was a little rant about how life mainly sucks.

So…here I go:

Long story short (to not cause too much confusion, causing me to share my issues to an extent)

My name is Abiron. I am a 14 year old……”girl.” I suffer from GID (Gender Identity Disorder, I am a Female-to-Male transgender, I believe so.) combined with on-and-off insecurities about myself. — This is the most I suffer from. You see, there are two main reasons why I refused to share this on my very first post:

1) Judgemental/Transphobic people.

2) Being called the wrong pronouns.

But you know what? […]

I relapsed.

It’s been a year and seven months since I last cut.

All of its down the drain now.

“Worthless” – that’s the word I chose this time.

That’s how I feel.

It seems like a good question to ask before you keep searching on this site for something you may never find or get something you were not looking for.

I dont even know where to start… I’v been dealing with depression for about three years now. And each day just seems to be getting harder than the day before.  I honestlywould not be here if it werent for a couple of friends that help me get thru.  I just want to quit so bad! I think of suicide every day. Some days I almost go thru with it.  I try to hide it as best as I can but some days its just so hard!

i want to text her. i know i shouldn’t. at worst she’ll get angry, and at best she’ll just ignore me. actually, i don’t know which would really be worst / best.

even just a simple, “hi, i hope you had a good day…”

if she cared, she would text me.

i text her though, i am labeled as annoying and/or pathetic.

i hate texting. this is not how people were meant to (or should) communicate.

stupid “DING” of the phone gets me all worked up.

i want to text her. i know i shouldn’t.

I don’t know where to start, but here I am. I turned 19 recently, nothing really big happened. I am a well behaved girl, I always obey my mothers direction to everything, even my path and such. I know that, my life isn’t any worst compare to others, but its just not right for me. I do wish that I am not greedy for life, but honestly i never get the appreciation i wanted. Whenever I was asked to do something, i never get any self value back, it seems like I am a slave or something to her. Did i say “asked”? sorry i […]

Why …why…….Why is it so hard..to be positive…no matter how much I try…….The end for me. I’m trying so hard…to reach for the light…end up falling back down. Please…..help me…..I’m hopeless….I’m giving up…..

All through my life ive been abused, my parents dont understand me, long story short they believe in forced respect. My brother suffers with depression, he used to cut in his room with a knife. My relatives are truly the rudest assholes ive met. They seem to enjoy me while im around but they never talk to me and ive heard them say bad things about when i get roughly 15 meters away from them. School is the worst. I get bullied and i get called names like ‘sausage nipples’ and ‘smalldick’ (the second one originated from 4 days ago when they saw me urinate […]

Hahahahahahaha Just got cheated on.

a friend of mine who recently broke up with her bf is contemplating suicide & she shared that with me..she told me she wants to inhale carbon monoxide..i’ve told her parents but they haven’t done enough about , i feel sick thinking that she might die in a painful way…or would this even be fatal? i don’t want her to do this and i’ve tried talking to her & comforting her but she cries eveday and it’s awful seeing her this way i just don’t know what to do at this point..

I hate my life so much, everytime something good happens its gone in a flash, looking back all I remember feeling is sadness and depression, so many times I’ve been desperate to end it all, I just can’t because it would devestate my family, the only people who actually do love me. I’m just so miserable all the time, I don’t think I can do this much longer, it hurts all the time, I constantly feel like bursting into tears and its as if i’m powerless to stop it, i love someone and they cheated, i took them back now it seems they might not […]

All I remember, all I have in this life is pain. Nobody around me can even begin ti imagine: I am a well-educated person in a good and well-paid job that I love, I have, or at least I pretend I have, an active social life…But I have never been happy, and I am so tired o trying…I am so tired of living. Nothing takes away that feeling. My life is apparently good, but if I went into details, it would be clear that not all that shines i gold. I grew up in a broken home, an all my childhood memories are accompanied […]