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Hi. I’ve tried everything i can to shake myself out of this depression but now i am inclined to think that the only way out is death.

Compared to many of the stories i’ve read sofar, my problem might seem trivial but i can assure you that it is causing me a significant amount of distress. When i was a boy up till high school, i was just like any regular kid. I wasn’t the most popular guy but i had lots of friends and had a good well-balanced life. I was happy and the future seemed so bright and filled with potential.

However, when […]

I laugh a lot and turn things around

I change pain into laughter

I smile when I should cry

I lie to myself

I lie everyday

Tonight everyone is out partying

I was invited to a few

Boys are texting me

In all honesty

It disgusts me

They just want to fuck

What good is that?

I want a hug

I want someone to hold and someone to hold me

However many times I’ve lied

I might as well just light myself on fire

It’s terrible

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll allow myself to ever show pain again

I wonder if I’ll keep smiling and laughing

It’s a hopeless cause all over

I’ve lost that one person I trust it all to

No matter how many […]

if so e-mail me: hannahschelling.15@gmail.com no one will talk to me and im in a house full of people so im bored outa my mind..anyone thats bored? EMAIL MEEEEEEEE<3

i wish this was my last post and then im off to the unknown but look at my posts..im A FUCKING MAGNET..the world seems to want me here just to be tortured…so idk what im saying..ima try again but FOR ANYONE WHO CARES(which now doesnt seem like many) just wait cuz il still be here the world wont let me leave-_-

I feel as if this site is more of a blog for people rather than an actual project to share stories about suicide expieriences, when people post their feelings on how they want to die so bad and how they’re going to, it’s kind of nerve wrecking because you eagerly want to help them out but don’t want to say the wrong thing or maybe push them over the edge. I don’t really have an excact reason as to why I’m typing this post that is irrelevant to the actual point of the site but I’m going to post it anyways because it’s my current […]

Where do I begin…. I am so lost and I feel so let down with life.nothing excites me anymore. All I do is work and for what I have nothing to show. No saved up money or new car. Nothing. I just live to support daily habits. I had so many goals when I was young but now fresh out of high school I have not one. Nothing interests me and believe me I try so hard to find that one thing. I smile everyday but come home and just look at myself and see nothing. I thought that maybe if I surrounded myself with […]

Il be glad when i die, its the easy way and i can prove that i dont have to live and take this shit/stress.. im just having fun until… i have a few more weeks to live.

I cant wait for my next attempt, i just pray i dont fuck up my suicide again, this is how i will and have to die, and very soon, the stress on my body cant deal with anymore, i need to die now, i should have died last month but im a coward and cant hang on a rope until i blackout and die, i came close but next time i will take a bunch of mucel relaxers, and trazadone to fall asleep while hangging myself, i am looking forward to try again soon, the next frw weeks, i have my funeral arrangements planned and […]

So recently ive delveloped a habit of biting myself… i cant seem to stop doingit for anything. I think i actually about broke my finger doing it.

Lord I’m lonely … wanna die.  If I ain’t dead already … girl you know the reason why

Everything is so chaotic right now.  I predict a very dark day in the US soon :/

This is my first time here, and it’s nice to know that there are others out there like me. I’ve tried to off myself a few times, got my stomach pumped and was stuffed in more mental hospitals than I count. I’ve been diagnosed as depressed, bipolar,PTSD, OCD, bulimic and BPD. I don’t know which of these are right, but every doctor I go to seems to have a different opinion.

When I was 14, a boyfriend I had at the time raped and tried to kill me by burning down the house I was in. I’m 19 now. Part of me hoped that as time […]

Wake up
brush my teeth
don’t forget to floss
mouthwash
rinse and repeat

shower and get dressed
eat a wholesome breakfast
read the morning paper

show up to work
right on time
clock in
work hard (or at least pretend)
clock out

go home for the day
exercise regularly
answer the phone
listen intently
feign interest
make “friends”
have dinner parties
be a normal
functioning member of society
go to bed at a decent time
don’t forget to reset that alarm
tomorrow is another day
another chance to prove you are worthwhile
a normal functioning member of society

i was just trying so hard to put my feeling into words. but nothing really came out, i guess im just not being honest with myself. not with anyone…i hate feelings. i hate thinking i could be with someone right now, i wonder how much emotional pain i’d put them through. but still sometimes i get this deep feelings for people, then the next minute i dont even feel a thing for them, maybe i really am bipolar. but right now i dont feel sad, nor angry at myself, i really am just not feeling anything. this month feels like its just floating.. i feel […]