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I just feel so terrible.  I’ve realized now that it’s not going to get better, I’m not going to get better. I just wish I could go, but my mother is in the next room and I couldn’t do that to her… I probably wouldn’t have the guts anyway, but just knowing my mother is there makes it even less likely I could do anything… I just want it to all stop…

I feel so pathetic so useless! I’m fat I’m ugly I’m a low life! How long can I live like this a lie I’m not happy I miss my dad! I don’t wanna be here! I’m back to where I was a year ago depressed & mean! I hate this person I am just make it go away all the pain & hurt!!! Just go away! The emptiness! I want all the goodtimes back! ! Just give me them back! !

im 14 and i have been cutting my self since i was 6, i only used to cut once or twice every week and it wasn’t to bad. but now i cut 2 or 3 times a day and its not like little cuts it like I’m hacking at my wrists and i cant stop. i don’t know why, i think its because of all the loss i have had in my family i have lost one or two people a year  since i was in grade one. and its super hard for me  to look in the mirror and be happy with what i […]

Finally, I’m back here. I scrounged up the courage to appear here again after yet another unsuccessful attempt.
I tried only to fail and when i failed, i lost a dramatic amount of weight..only to gain almost all of it back. Felt better only to feel worse. Maybe this proves that I dont want to die, but I sure as hell hate this life.

I wish I could overdose on weed. Seriously… that would be the way to go. Too stoned to stay awake… then you drift off painlessly.

I just looked, and I can get a one way ticket to LA for just $155 on Amtrak. It would take 2 days to get there, but why would I be in a rush just to get to a city where I have no where to live? But I don’t feel like I should stay here. I’m only a burden to everyone I love.

I used to think I loved my mother unconditionally… No matter what she did or how many times she hurt… I still always forgave… But my love has reached its limit she has hurt me countless times and I am done with her… She will never change…. I only hope that one day I can not love her agin but forgive her for all she has done…

One year since my ex told me she no longer felt anything for me. We were engaged. And when I got depressed she asked me what the problem was. A week later I hear from a friend that she might be pregnant with my child, but she didn’t plan on telling me, and she’d just ‘take care’ of it without me. I spiraled after that.
I’ve spent the last year drinking away my pain. But it just piles on. With a dead end low wage job, too much debt to get a loan to go back and finish my degree, and what few friends I […]

I think one of the main reasons I can not do suicide is that I am afraid of going to hell.. They say if u kill your self it’s a major sin and you go to hell? I am not a religious person but the thought of this scares me.. What if this is true what if my after life is worse then my current life?? Is ther an after life?? Is there a hell?? Or is it just death when you die nothing more?

My first thought suicide was when I was really young about 8 years old I tried to slice my wrist open… I am now 14 years old and instead of trying to kill myself anymore I smoke weed to escape… Every now and then I still think of suicide but then I just go and smoke….

So my aunt has had custody of me for a few years now and at first it was just me and her until her husband came into the picture thats when things went bad… For years now there has been content arguing and many times were they almost got a divorce and all because of me.. It’s came to the point were enough is enough and they might get a divorce for real this time.. I feel that if I leave and go back with my dad then my. Aunt can save her marriage with me out of the picture… Should I leave or stay….idk […]

I created an account here to try and help me deal with All my problems.. I fell like this is. Place where I can let out all of my feelings and not be judged or put down… Plus I think it will be good to let all my emotions out instead of keeping it all bottled up….

what!? i swear, 5 minutes ago i was happy…smiling even! today was a good day!! now im fighting back crying??? im worse…now I WANNA FUCKIN DIE NOW?! dear geezus i just wanna be happy an d stay thhat way.. BUIT NO IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT!? im sick of this…ok so what if i die? ha im sure my bf wouldnt mind. im sure my family as hell would NOT care, so why dont i just leave. NO SHUT THE FUCK UP! i have to be happy. sorry but bipolar wont let me but only on rare occasions, ugh. this makes everything so much harder. […]

Hi Everyone,

I came here as it seems to be my last hope.  I have been dealing with depression for 5 years and just found out I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Manic Depression.  For the first 3 years, it was pretty easy compared to everything I’m going through now.  I only thought of suicide, but never attempted.  Then, I started to attempt and wound up in the hospital twice from it.  Well 2 months ago, my fiancee broke up with me and I was devastated.  I seeked therapy and was getting hope from my ex-fiancee that we would get back together.  1 1/2 months later, […]

I have had the idea on my mind since I was like 12 (I’m 33 now). The things that always kept me from going were the same as any one else’s (i guess): hurting those I leave behind, to fail the attempt, going painfully or scared. I mean, most of the ways of doing this succesfully are either extreme, violent, creepy or too painful. I know it sounds like I’m the afraid one, and maybe that’s partly it, but also, I can’t get off my mind the fact that someone will find me, and someone will tell my people how i went, so it’s already […]

I just found this site. I’ve been looking for a place where I can talk about wishing for death without everyone jumping on me and talking about the wonders of life.

I hope I found it.