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Since there doesn’t appear to be a way to cancel my account, what do I have to do to get permanently banned?  I don’t want this account just sitting open on the internet.  I should have never signed up here.

I put everyone down. When I am with people (which is hardly ever) I can see the look in their eyes. I can see them waiting for me to go. Because nobody likes me. I have nobody to talk to and nobody to relate to. From the outside, people see a girl with a happy life who is happy. But once you get to know me I am so different to the mask I put on. I wish I had the guts to kill myself.

Does anyone else feel sick all the time like their body and brain are just shutting down ?

It feels like I’m just dying.

I’ve been battling depression for as long as I can remember. Dr trials, pill trials, I couldn’t take it. They finally stuck me on Pristiq and dismissed all of my issues. It’s teen angst, he has nothing to be sad about. 

Who in the world is entitled to decide how I should feel? Everybody is just ‘fine’ all the time. Here’s a shocking fact: I’m not fine. I’m on the opposite end of the spectrum. I’ve relapsed into this state of self loathing and loneliness I thought I conquered years ago. Some how, after everything I’ve been through, it decides to rear its head NOW. I […]

Always find this an interesting intro to the show “Cheers”

http://youtu.be/xvRGh2NEjSU

of course M.A.S.H.’s theme is lovely too…

(Sorry for video spam)

Sunrise is in 3 hours and 38 minutes.  Someone give me one good reason why I should live long enough to watch it happen.

Please, none of this touchy-feely “you have people who care about you” shit.  Frankly, I don’t care how my death will affect anyone I know.

Give me a reason to live for me.

I feel like I am strangling on my own self-loathing.

Hello, I’m a new member here on this website. I first came here last night when I was looking for a painless way to die and stumbled along the Helium Hood Method. I then began to research it and stumbled along the ENORMOUS thread about it, reading everyone of it last night while deeply considering doing it. I read about Jabawabba and everyone else and the Dignitas paper and it was like Wow. I kept reading and that calmed me down so I fell asleep. 

Anyways a little about me. Yeah born blah, blah. I move to the States with my mother seeking a better life […]

I have been battling depression for over 6 years now.  I was bullied really bad during the first 13 years of my life by people my age and adults alike, and I have no self confidence because of it.  I get stressed easily and do different things to relieve the pain I feel.  I also have panic attacks very often.  I first tried to commit suicide four years ago, after that failed attempt, I have been dreaming about the day I will be able to just do it and be gone.  I have tried three times since then, but I always fail miserably.  My counselor […]

I’ve been contemplating suicide, but I’m afraid what awaits me or what doesn’t await me on the other side. Where does my mind go? Surely there’s a place for it? I’m scared of how I’ll feel or won’t feel… I want to be able to see what happens after I off myself and keep living somehow as a ghost… Wishful thinking, I know. But seriously, is anyone else scared of the unknown?

Laid off from job. Applied for numerous other jobs and never heard back. Finally got a new job, absolutely hate it. I want to quit, but I have a fear that I won’t be happy in any job I find with the career I’ve chosen… though it can certainly be better than where I”m currently at.

Nearly 30 years old. Never had a girlfriend. Never kissed a girl. Longest “relationship” is 3 dates with a girl that was rather mean.

Socially awkward. I have no friends and don’t know how to connect with other human beings in the world. When talking with people I simply can’t understand […]

Im not gonna kill myself after all 🙂 Maybe im just having a moment of bipolar weirdness, but i just cant see why i ever considered suicide as an option earlier. I no longer give a shit about that girl from my other post, so now ive been able to clearly think about what i want. I want to live 😀

not tonight. im going to plan this very well. so i wont fail, 13th time goin to be a charmXD i hope. i wanna try everyday..but i can defend myself with my sister…i can…if i dont want internet for 2 years…then yeah id stand up for myself but shes a black mailer…she will tell on me for sexting (more reasons but thats the main one) again. she is still abusive either way but having secrets makes her worse…she only knows cuz i was takin pics when she walked in on me. her abuse is killin me. i cant live anymore. she tells me all the […]

There is nothing special about me. I’m not pretty, I’m fat, and no guy has tried to make a pass at me for two years. I’m so fucking desperate, I hate myself for acting flirty with everyone just in case I get a chance. My best friend has left me alone, and I can tell I annoy her. I fantasise about someone finding me with an empty case of pills, peacefully gone to sleep forever in bed. I fantasise about the best friend finding me, so that I can die knowing someone cared.

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I’m sick of playing the game of life, for me it’s just full of false hope and let downs. Every time life starts to look good or seems hopefully different, it crashes and dissolves into something seemingly worse than before. I get these little bursts of maybe a week or two of just this false hope, and I fall for it every time. Argh! Only 145 days until my promise is void and I can finally take my life… It’s been a long wait. Who knows maybe within these potential last months of my life I’ll gain a new understanding and desire for life. I doubt it tough.

Blarg! 😛

Anyone else ever feel like they’re in some movie. Here I am sitting in my dark room with depressing-ish music, door closed yet I hear family playing with my niece and laughing and such. Or maybe just a feeling of being on the outside of life, and you just watch everyone else go throughout their lives. Some specter.