Words can’t describe how much pain I’m in. I love him so much and he couldn’t give two shits about me. He had said he loved me and cared about me and than started acting like I don’t exist. I don’t know what to do. This hurts so bad. I really can’t live without him. He’s all I think about. We broke up in April and ever since than I’ve been going through the worst bout of depression I’ve ever experienced. I really cant take this anymore. I met an awesome guy who wants to take me out, but I’m not going to give him a chance because all I can think about is how he’s not him. I hate my life. I honestly can’t think of one reason to live. I’m a worthless nobody that’s not worthy of love and is never going to do anything lives her life.
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Is this your first intense love? I felt the same way, but truly, he’s a shit. You might crave him, even love him, but your longing is for something far greater than him. Your longing is for your own inner peace of mind and heart. I wrote the below many years ago.
“Sometimes still, I think I’ll never smile again. Except the difference now, I know I will.”
Once you overcome that first fatal heartbreak, you can overcome them all. Trust me. So many times when I didn’t get what I wanted it was as if life itself was watching out for me.
You probably chases him away no offense. But guys hate clingy. And it really isn’t your fault. go on that date. Stop dating losers who can’t stick around when shit gets rough.