Not depressed, just realized I’m to blame

It’s been said that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. I don’t see that as a deterrent, who wants a temporary solution to any problem? Solutions are good, permanent solutions are even better. Anyways, my life sucks. Life doesn’t suck, just mine. And there is no one to blame but me. I don’t care enough about anything. I am unmotivated to make my situation any better. I just don’t care. People sometimes tell me to search for that desire or goal or want to strive for, only I don’t want anything. I don’t even want to die, I just don’t want to live anymore. The tragedy of my life has been that it has been led by me, and since I don’t care enough to change it what’s the point of continuing? Is it living just to wake up function with no hope, desire, or motivation? Everything is my fault, not societies. I understand that. And also that a life with an “I don’t care about anything” attitude is not worth living.