For your poems.
It doesnt stop
it sneaks up and pops right in.
unwelcomed it comes,
knock knock.
i try to lock it away,
push it back
swallow it down.
the hits just keep rolling.
one day ill be free
the question is when?
My List Of Kickass Music That Some Of You May Like:
1. Tricky-Wash My Soul
2. Tricky-Poems
3. Tricky-Christiansands
4. Massive Attack-Dissolved Girl
5. Massive Attack-Risingson
6. Massive Attack-Live With Me
7. Portishead-Roads
8. Portishead-Wandering Star
9. Portishead-Glory Box
10. Silversun Pickups-Lazy Eye
11. Silversun Pickups-Rusted Wheel
12. Silversun Pickups-Catch and Release
13. Azam Ali-In Other Worlds
14. Niyaz-Dunya
15. Niyaz-Sadrang
16. Niyaz-Tamana
This List Is Songs I’ve Been Listening To For The Past Month. I Love Them Like Friggin Crazy
“How can they know how it feels,” I ask my self as I’m crying, “To wake up the next morning and realize that you’ve just failed at dying? To drone on day after day searching for a reason, just one reason to stay?” They said they really cared for me and i was dumb enough to believe them. I trusted them, i lived for them, and now i never see ’em. They ran away, scared today to think of what ive become. A monster, a coward, a harbringer of a life thats become undone. And so I’ll end my solemn poem with these words i […]
I have no happiness anymore. I have no motivation. No attention to school. No reason to live. This is my lowest point, and I can’t feel better. I just absolutely lost the will. My mind is filled with thoughts on life and a constant need to figure out the meaning of life. I guess I need to be high in order to be normal and to function. My cousin Jasmine and I haven’t seen each other in a long while. I am still in love, but love isn’t the meaning of life so there goes my will, especially since she’s my cousin so I can’t […]
It probably has alot of spelling errors because I fail at writing ! Probably sucks to but w/e I’ll give it a shot her I go ….
BEAUTIFUL DISASTERÂ
She had a stern look on her face
She disappointed in me again
There’s no surprise
I always disspaont her
Hell I’m a fuck up
Why not asked like one
I sighed and look at her
She gonna speak … Great
And so she started
What should I do this time . Kiss her ass ?
“don’t play with razors ! It’s to god damn dangerous!
I Thought you were better than this fuck ! Grow up already!”
So went to my room […]
If i were a super hero
would you love me then or leave me?
think of me as a freak
or, a justice peace fighter?
would you love me for who i was,
and take me as i am?
or, would i be to complicated still
to much for you to comprehend?
Your supposed to be a loving person
someone i’m supposed to look up to.
instead your someone who i just cant stand.
if i were a super hero
could i finally be your friend?
maybe you then you […]
Stick and Stones are hard on bones when thrown with an angry heart, words can sting like anything but silence breaks the heart…
maybe im the reason that I have no one. I dont bother to tell people what im thinking. I hide everything maybe thats why no one is aware or why im alone. Its all my fault. I dont flaunter my emotions. Is that what im doing wrong? Is that why no one bothers to listen? Does no one understand that I have a damn heart, one that gets hurt too
“Let love but gently touch the strings,
   ‘Twill all be sweet again!” Â
“Kindness glides about my house.
Dame Kindness, she is so nice!
The blue and red jewels of her rings smoke
In the windows, the mirrors
Are filling with smiles.
What is so real as the cry of a child?
A rabbit’s cry may be wilder
But it has no soul.
Sugar can cure everything, so Kindness says.
Sugar is a necessary fluid,
Its crystals a little poultice.
I’m only 13, but I’m smart enough to see the truth. The world has gone to shit, and there’s nothing I can do about it.
My life has been one big downhill fall. I don’t mean to sound whiney or “emo”, but I can’t help it. I completely seclude myself, so I don’t have to deal with the idiots of the world. Homeschool is stressing me out, but I’m terrified to go to normal school. I pick my nails and skin, and continue because the pain is the only feeling I ever have other than apathy and melancholy. My parents don’t understand, my brother doesn’t […]
Sometimes I question if anyone is responsible for the way my life is..
Then I realize there is no one to blame but myself.
walking without standing
laughter without joy
speaking without sound
smiling without hope
moving forward but staying exactly where I am
if you’ve ever looked on a color wheel, and if you look at it hard enough
it will strike you
that the most diverse and abundant colours there are to perceive
are neither the primary colors nor the secondary colors, but the differing tertiary shades
of browns and greys.
and if you were to take a random photograph of the world around you
you will often find
that unless you engineer the scene to bring out the vivid
or fiddle with the hues or turn the saturation up
all you will get are the browns and greys at different intensities
which form the highlights and […]
I’m filled with an emptiness, that’s tearing me apart
There is no tenderness, or love left in my heart
I gave it all away, gave it up without a fight
Now it’s the close of day, so I’ll say goodbye tonight
I can laugh and joke with you, play guitar and sing
But I will end up hurting you, with the pain I always bring
Good-for-nothing’s got to go; I’ll fade into the night
Don’t ask me where ‘cause I don’t know, but I’ll say goodbye tonight
Don’t search for me; lost souls can’t be found
Doesn’t everybody end up in the ground?
I’ve given all that I […]
I haven’t been here in a while.
People think im getting better.. Im not.. Its just the same.
If not worse.
I have pills
Pills to take me away.
Who knew Aspirin was so fantastic?
I’m not sure if I don’t want to kill myself because I finally have a better life, for right now, or if I’m just to numb to feel sorry for myself.
For my art class I had to paint something with emotion… It took me about two days to think of something to paint since I’m almost completely emotionless.
In every painting I have it has a heart somewhere incorporated in it. I’m not sure why but I always paint hearts. I guess it’s because I’m always looking for love. I don’t know, I just always feel empty, like I’m missing something. I’ve never had this feeling before, not […]
remember me– I said
to myself, yesterday.
remember today’s happiness
to carry yourself through
the sorrows of tomorrow.
by this, you may keep yourself
alive.
so I tried.
but we are creatures of the moment.
we live for seconds
so we may live through days;
and days are all
we shall remember
when we look back upon
years.
Dance in the fire from the sky
The crimson raindrops burning alight,
Dripping down from the fire that is the sky.
Light the match and let it simmer,
Let it burn a hole through your heart.
Light the match and let it simmer.
Sit among the raindrops of flame,
Dripping down from the fire that is the sky.
Let it burn, burn, burn off her skin.
Rip her from the bone,
Set her dreams aflame,
As her spirit screams to the sky,
Which no longer exists .
She’s trapped, she’s trapped,
Burning her spirit not living,
Any longer,
Forever in Hell.
Reverie
“I am where the loneliest souls gather..
Though I remained all alone,
But may these moments be eternal..
May this dark yet starlit sky shine on me
Forever!”…
Everyone dies.. but not everyone truly lives.
“If a person were to awake from a dream in which he experienced a hundred years of happiness, and another were to awake from a dream in which he had experienced but a brief moment of happiness,
Once awake, the situation would be the same for both because neither could ever return to that happiness.
In the same way, whether our life is long or short, at the time of death everything […]