For your poems.
I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.
I don’t know how we got there, but we were there, in my bed. Only a white sheet covering your gorgeous body, revealing a patch of chest hair, and my head on your shoulder; my “nook” as you called it.
Whether the light through my curtains signaled dawn or dusk, I couldn’t say, and it didn’t matter anyhow, because you were here with me again. Looking up at you, I asked for a kiss, it’d felt like forever since I’d kissed you, […]
You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.
You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.
Without being there with you, but in your […]
I wake up
to find you dead
I don’t believe
my broken head
I go to school
thinking you’re asleep
but through the day
I can’t help but weep
I feel dead when
I come home
seeing you there
my heart turns stone
I call a friend
scared and crying
She tells me you’re dead
I tell her she’s lying
Now there are cops
In our small home
they ask me questions
and invade our dome
I realize now
what this does mean
with these people around me
I let out a silent scream
It was valentines day
that you died of OD
I thought you were fine
but I guess […]
Faded smile. It can say a lot, or it can say nothing at all. As a kid you have a smile that just brightens everyone’s day. But as you get older you may still have that smile and it may still brighten everyone’s day but the one person who needs it the most is you and your smile doesn’t help you. Years go by, friends get lost, deaths appear, heartbreaks… Things that as a kid never existed. Soon we are shown that our lives are in our own hands. That we just as much as others can take it away just like that. And soon […]
I’m writing a story inspired by a dream I had, when I’m finished I will post it. The general story line is about a girl that falls in love with the devil, death, evil, or whatever you feel like calling him. I haven’t decided on his name however I am tempted to go with the ever classic, Lucifer. Thoughts?
THE ANIMA SERIES
Look the channel up on YouTube if you want.
***They are Christian messages***
I just wanted to let that be known, I’m not shoving religion down anyones throat, I just wanted to share some videos I found to be very uplifting. Even if your not Christian some of these messages are still really good to hear.
I also don’t care if anyone is offended by this, if anyone is then they have a problem because there is much worse in the world today.
Wow it’s been awhile since I last read through all these stories.
All I have to say to all you beautiful human beings that are feeling low and depressed, or thinking of the most craziest shit to do? Is SMILEEEEEEE (: From one ear to another, stretch that smile of yours. Who knows, you might just make someones day with that beautiful smile.
Be happy, or well you could TRY and be happy. If it doesn’t work? Smoke a blunt. haha kidding (: Have a dance in your room, put those earphones on maximum volume and dance like its the end of the world. I promise you, […]
It hurts when I hear your name,
It hurts when I see your picture,
It hurts when I read something that reminds me of you.
It hurts to miss you a lot.
It hurts to be alone.
It’s nice to love your best friend. But it’s not easy when you love love love your best friend. I mean when you fall in love. It’s hard to hide and hurts not to tell. And share. You should never ever ever tell them how you feel about that kind of love, cause you will lose your best friend and suddenly will become a stranger. Theres no such pain that can compare to love someone who doesn’t love you back. Yes you can take that risk and be brave enough to tell them. You can fail and get really fucking hurt, or in the case […]
“Somehow I’m gonna lose you, cause You’re not mine, and You’ll never be.
It hurts cause I want us to happen. I was us to be. I could bet that deep inside you, you feel the same way for me. I need a sign before is too late. I can’t tell you how much I need you, how much I love you, how much I want you. Before is too late, please be with me before I’m dead.”
How could I be so blind? I guess I fell in love too quickly… but I’m fine.
Imagine where you’d be now If you only knew, the one you love is the one who’s killing you.
I trusted you too much, I know now that I should have kept my eyes wide open.
I handed you a knife and my heart, and now the dream is over.
HEY TRISTEZA JUST WANTED TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE YOU GIRL!!! <3
I went to a party and got way too drunk and cheated on my husband… Now he barely talks to me, and neither of us has stopped crying for long. I don’t even know how much longer he’s going to be in my life… This morning I had to catch him as he jumped with the belt tightened around his neck.
I need to die, I deserve to. I’ve caused him so much pain, and I’m not worth it. I’m not worth the air I breathe, I’m such a shit person.
Last few days i’ve felt pretty lost. Not so much that i don’t know where i am, or where i want to go, but that i have no idea how to get there, or how to not be stuck where i am. It’s a different kind of lost; much more like ‘stuck.’
Kinda feelin’ like i gotta go.
I don’t really want to, but i can’t seem to find another way forward or out.
Need money, but can’t get it. And since i can’t get money, i can’t do anything but wait for more of my life to tick away into the abyssal past, unspent. So as long […]
There’s something cold and blank behind her smile
She’s standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
“You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away”
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won’t save her from herself
Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
I miss you so much. You were the only person who made me feel really loved for the first time. It was a lie and just for a moment. That hurts. Still. I miss you like crazy.
Why do i get blamed at something i didnt do…
Im sorry…
ok…
thats all i say with my mask…
im homesick from a place that isint real…
my heart fells like its dying every second it beats,,it says i just want to die…i didnt do anything wrong..did i ?
im falling…God please help…please…
he helps me …but i always fall agian…
my guardian angel Alex…i miss him even though i know hes here…i miss his voice
i miss his texts
i miss wolfy….im sorry wolfy
forgive me…
alex please dont cry when im gone…gardian angel please dont cry when im gone…
im going to […]
And here I am. Writing on a website my feelings of sadness.
I have no friends. No one to talk to. A crazy family that I live with but try to avoid because of my disagreements of their lifestyle. Im a very stubborn person. I feel that Im broken as a result of my own family. I feel mental anguish. I have RSI in my wrist from too much typing, writing, mouse clicking. I am on medication for something that was caused by my family. I despise medication. I havent had real friends for 7 years. Ive been depressed since I was 16. Even though […]