I want to say that nearly half the males in my family have contemplated suicide at some point in their life. Â For some reason, men are taking their lives at nearly five times the rate of women. Â I have had friends and family disappear, overdose or lose their life. Â I thank God for one who still lives…he became a best friend and between him and some damn good women in my life ,they lead me through the most depressing time of my life. Â I’m not exempt from the statistics of contemplation. Â But when I came out if it, I found my life back on track. […]
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Anyone ever had something terrible done to them? I did. Police, doctors counsellors. Everyone was concerned. I wasn’t. Was I suppose to? I was upset sure, but everyone assumed I was suicidal, depressed, I was crazy, I needed help. Putting words in my mouth. Sure I was depressed I still am and was way before this, and sure I’m suicidal but I’ve been for a long time. This changed nothing. Or I though it didn’t. It was funny the first few months I acted like nothing happened. Everyone was concerned, and I was neutral to the whole thing. It never hit me. But as months […]
Hey if any one wants to chat or something send me an invite on Skype we can video chat or IM it doesn’t matter. My SN is Frosty66686. just mention this site so i know who or where ur coming from. send me an invite anytime ill accept it.
My  legs begin to break, i walked this path for far too long, my lungs, they start to ache, but still i’m carry on. I’m choking on my words like i got a noose around my neck. I can’t believe it’s come to this, and i fear, i fear, that the end is near. I fear that the fear is ending tonight.
I fear this is the end, this happens all the time, this happens every day,
But I never seem to quit.
I can’t stop the bleeding, and it’s only getting worse, this happens all the time
This happens every day
But I never seem to quit.
Only the dead have […]
Maybe suicide, and by extension, any death, isn’t as big a deal as we, the living, tend to make it out to be?
Maybe ‘they’ are right: maybe we really do simply need to “just get over it.”
After all, being debilitated by sadness and “wallowing in self pity,” pining away in poignant poetry, languishing in labyrinthine lament… doesn’t really make anything any better… does it? It doesn’t help you live your life, or reduce the suffering of your sorrows. It doesn’t funnel your energy into a concentrated beam of razor sharp precision, to become useful in cutting out all the parts you don’t like, and severing […]
Read the title again. Do have those eyes? Do you see the lies? You might think you do, but many of you (myself included) do not see the most obvious of lies, the ones from the people you love the most. When you love someone oh so dearly, you don’t want to see the bad out of them whether it be a boyfriend, mother, father, husband, wife, best friend etc. But let me tell you when you finally see those lies. It will hit you. I’m not saying everyone around you is bad. But those people you call friends, are they really your friends? When […]
That little kiss you stole, it held my heart and soul. And like a ghost in the silence i disappear, don’t try to fight the storm, you’ll tumble overboard. Tides will bring me back to you.
Don’t say I’m better off dead, cause heaven’s full and hell won’t have me.                                  Can you help me to stop sinking?                                                     […]
Why are You here? Not in this world, not in this situation, but this site. Why?
I’m here because I look for a little bit hope. I need someone to say it’s going to be alright. I know it will be. Maybe not today, but it will. I only post here when I’m suicidal, but look, I don’t post here often. You probably don’t go to this site everyday too. I’ve known this site for about a year and I haven’t posted much. I know suicidal days somehow find me but I’m not affraid anymore. I know it will pass. And when it does I start […]
I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.
Anyone who knows where Dave_N is or what happened to him? I really haven’t seen him for a long time. I really wanna know a little bit more about why he disappeared and so, because I felt related to him in some way and he lived like 5 miles away from me, but I don’t know exactly where. Any information is welcome. Please help me!!
Hey, I’m new to this site, I have been reading posts on it every night for a while now, and always intended to make an account but haven’t until today. I know that no one know anything about me, or that i even exist, so this probably won’t get read, but just figured i’d see if it helps to write how I feel instead of keeping it to myself like i always do. I’m sorry that this is so long, i guess, if your bored, have fun. but i doubt anyone will read it anywasys, and if you do, you most likely won’t finish it. […]
I stood on the edge of the balcony of my hotel room. 16 floors up. Top floor. And I wanted to jump. To fall. I wanted to know how it felt to die, to be no more.
Then I got scared.
In my health class, we’re doing the “Jason Foundation”. Which is a suicide prevention program our school does for all health classes. We watched a video from it and it showed what these people are going through and it showed a Guy cutting himself. I didn’t want to watch it so I looked at this packet we had to fill out and a Guy said “Why aren’t you
watching? Does your past hurt you, attention whore?”
Honestly, it did hurt watching it. But, that’s complete BS that some Guy, WHO DOESN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH, would give me crap because I have […]
…This changed my day…
…I hope it changes yours too…
You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.
You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.
Without being there with you, but in your […]
Lately I have been feeling better, I guess. I dropped some people in my life, they caused my excess pain, that I didn’t need. They were like chains, holding me down. I have begun a routine of self appreciation, after so long, of hating myself…. Treating myself to spa nights with friends I’ve pushed away, has improved my social skills, I hope. Trying to re-build friendships I’ve broken down out of pure pain. Having some people around me helps me quite a bit. I have started trying to surround myself with positive things, the best I can.
I have no idea how […]
I want to share the change that happened in me. Maybe my words will mean something to someone. I met some people that shared some ideas with me and their words hit me where i needed it. These were those words:
I am not my thoughts, feelings or states, those are the things that are just passing through me. I can choose if i want to relate to them. I am the one that is aware of the thoughts and feeling,s, so they are not a part of me. They are the clouds and i am the sky. I exist even without any of […]