Don’t say I’m better off dead, cause heaven’s full and hell won’t have me.                                  Can you help me to stop sinking?                                                     […]
Stories of Hope
Why are You here? Not in this world, not in this situation, but this site. Why?
I’m here because I look for a little bit hope. I need someone to say it’s going to be alright. I know it will be. Maybe not today, but it will. I only post here when I’m suicidal, but look, I don’t post here often. You probably don’t go to this site everyday too. I’ve known this site for about a year and I haven’t posted much. I know suicidal days somehow find me but I’m not affraid anymore. I know it will pass. And when it does I start […]
I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.
Anyone who knows where Dave_N is or what happened to him? I really haven’t seen him for a long time. I really wanna know a little bit more about why he disappeared and so, because I felt related to him in some way and he lived like 5 miles away from me, but I don’t know exactly where. Any information is welcome. Please help me!!
Hey, I’m new to this site, I have been reading posts on it every night for a while now, and always intended to make an account but haven’t until today. I know that no one know anything about me, or that i even exist, so this probably won’t get read, but just figured i’d see if it helps to write how I feel instead of keeping it to myself like i always do. I’m sorry that this is so long, i guess, if your bored, have fun. but i doubt anyone will read it anywasys, and if you do, you most likely won’t finish it. […]
I stood on the edge of the balcony of my hotel room. 16 floors up. Top floor. And I wanted to jump. To fall. I wanted to know how it felt to die, to be no more.
Then I got scared.
In my health class, we’re doing the “Jason Foundation”. Which is a suicide prevention program our school does for all health classes. We watched a video from it and it showed what these people are going through and it showed a Guy cutting himself. I didn’t want to watch it so I looked at this packet we had to fill out and a Guy said “Why aren’t you
watching? Does your past hurt you, attention whore?”
Honestly, it did hurt watching it. But, that’s complete BS that some Guy, WHO DOESN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH, would give me crap because I have […]
…This changed my day…
…I hope it changes yours too…
You’re tearing me apart,
When I can’t stop thinking and lock myself in my mind.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re always on my head and You’re forcing me to stop thinking of myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
When you want me to stop living, and concentrate on your feelings.
You’re tearing me apart,
Cause while time passes, flowers are dying and so am I.
You’re tearing me apart,
When You’re giving me reasons to not fight and give up on myself.
You’re tearing me apart,
All I can feel is the pain that you left and is keeping me by your side.
Without being there with you, but in your […]
Lately I have been feeling better, I guess. I dropped some people in my life, they caused my excess pain, that I didn’t need. They were like chains, holding me down. I have begun a routine of self appreciation, after so long, of hating myself…. Treating myself to spa nights with friends I’ve pushed away, has improved my social skills, I hope. Trying to re-build friendships I’ve broken down out of pure pain. Having some people around me helps me quite a bit. I have started trying to surround myself with positive things, the best I can.
I have no idea how […]
I want to share the change that happened in me. Maybe my words will mean something to someone. I met some people that shared some ideas with me and their words hit me where i needed it. These were those words:
I am not my thoughts, feelings or states, those are the things that are just passing through me. I can choose if i want to relate to them. I am the one that is aware of the thoughts and feeling,s, so they are not a part of me. They are the clouds and i am the sky. I exist even without any of […]
THE ANIMA SERIES
Look the channel up on YouTube if you want.
***They are Christian messages***
I just wanted to let that be known, I’m not shoving religion down anyones throat, I just wanted to share some videos I found to be very uplifting. Even if your not Christian some of these messages are still really good to hear.
I also don’t care if anyone is offended by this, if anyone is then they have a problem because there is much worse in the world today.
Wow it’s been awhile since I last read through all these stories.
All I have to say to all you beautiful human beings that are feeling low and depressed, or thinking of the most craziest shit to do? Is SMILEEEEEEE (: From one ear to another, stretch that smile of yours. Who knows, you might just make someones day with that beautiful smile.
Be happy, or well you could TRY and be happy. If it doesn’t work? Smoke a blunt. haha kidding (: Have a dance in your room, put those earphones on maximum volume and dance like its the end of the world. I promise you, […]
It hurts when I hear your name,
It hurts when I see your picture,
It hurts when I read something that reminds me of you.
It hurts to miss you a lot.
It hurts to be alone.
It’s nice to love your best friend. But it’s not easy when you love love love your best friend. I mean when you fall in love. It’s hard to hide and hurts not to tell. And share. You should never ever ever tell them how you feel about that kind of love, cause you will lose your best friend and suddenly will become a stranger. Theres no such pain that can compare to love someone who doesn’t love you back. Yes you can take that risk and be brave enough to tell them. You can fail and get really fucking hurt, or in the case […]
“Somehow I’m gonna lose you, cause You’re not mine, and You’ll never be.
It hurts cause I want us to happen. I was us to be. I could bet that deep inside you, you feel the same way for me. I need a sign before is too late. I can’t tell you how much I need you, how much I love you, how much I want you. Before is too late, please be with me before I’m dead.”
I don’t know where I’d be without my deformed maniac shelter puppy. (Why, and perhaps how, would anyone breed a dachshund with a pit bull?). Somehow, I just couldn’t say no to his white vest and two white toes on each foot. He’s the most bro dog I’ve ever had.
And cat people, please don’t confuse cats with the greatness of dogs; dogs are clearly higher in the Lamarkian chain of beings. ;^)
I used to have a big sloppy Saint Bernard. One day while walking back home, Bobo stopped at a teenage girl sitting on a curb in front of the bus […]