For those who have passed on.
I’m not afraid of being laughed at. I just think that, even if I do my best now, I still may not be able to reach my goal. No… I know the chance of success is way too low. Knowing that, why would I even try?! Why don’t I just living my life like this ’till the end?
Hello, there. I know life has become so bad, but we can be together forever. No one cared about you but I’ll care for you. You’ve gone into a deep depression and I can help you to get out of your depression and I can make your life happy 🙂
I need a girl’s friendship. I’m just a normal boy looking for someone special in my life! I don’t know if I can find someone to talk to. Even if My life was perfect it was like mess for me, I was depressed too but I learned to getup and change my life. My life is […]
No one sees me falling
No one sees me dying
No one sees me crying.
Not even the rain.
I’m tired, overwhelmed, uninspired, afraid, hurting, uninspired and I don’t know how to get past it. I might not even know what it is I’m trying to get past. I try something new only to spin my wheels. I’m living my life on repeat, with the same worn out patterns and themes playing again and again.
At first, I thought there is something wrong with me, then I found out why but no ones care and I realize the real problem.
I am new here, both the website and the desire to end it. I am a seventeen year old male in the 12th grade. I have read many of the stories and thought it best if my story is out there somewhere, for when I am gone(even if no one I know reads it).
I have had a great life, that makes the feelings I have more confusing, both to me and the doctors. I move a lot and have little amounts of friends, but I am ok with that. I am very smart, especially in mathematics.
My life started its bitter collapse in May […]
I’m at the point where I can’t make a difference between right or wrong since I fight the urge to accept that controlling someone’s else life is a right thing to do.
I am full of anguish and regret for everything I have done and I sometimes wonder if it is worth it to live.
I shouldn’t give a fuck about what anyone else thinks
I have the right to do what makes me feel good
Hurting dickheads makes me feel good
I have a right to hurt dickheads
I have a right to blow up the school
This logic is obviously flawed, and it leaves me with nothing except for the validation that I can’t have what I want and life is just a battle that you fight until you die. Well, fuck this and fuck you. I’ll relieve you of your duties in battle . I’ll do it with a piece of […]
Through the dark days
I don’t blame anyone for the hand I’ve been dealt with in life. Truthfully I have never indulged in self-pity, self-hate certainly and the desire to end my life yes but not pity, nor do I want pity, more than anything I need to share my story, to get it off my chest, and to thank those angels who helped me when I didn’t want to help myself.
 su·i·cide Â
/ˈso͞oiˌsīd/
Noun
The action of killing oneself intentionally: “he committed    suicide at the age of forty”.
Verb
Intentionally kill oneself.
Synonyms
noun.
self-destruction – self-murder
verb.
take one’s own life – make away with oneself
The word that ended it all, my simple life […]
I’ve got iron over my heart. Â They see the tattered sweater.
I’ve got a wonderful smile. They see a messed up child.
I try to understand where they are coming from. But I can’t.
How dare they make up a quirk in exchange for a good trait.
Maybe it’s all in my head.
Maybe I should let it go like everyone says to.
The girl was laying in her bed staring up at the ceiling, unblinking, her long hair streaming out around her. Her tears had made large damp marks on her pillow case. The door was closed; the blinds were drawn.
She was waiting for the pills to take effect.
She wondered how long it would be before she started to drift away. She hoped it would be painless and peaceful – just like in the movies. How long had it been already? It felt like forever.
She thought of her family. Of her brothers and sister. Would they miss her after she was gone? They had never exactly been […]
One of the worst parts of being me (and trust me there are many) is knowing that i will have a best friend for approximately 2-3 years and then they will abruptly leave me. At first i just thought, ‘you know, its the end of the friendship i can accept that’ but 3-4 friendships ahead of this mindset, i now know that it’s all. my. fault.
Let’s explain these friends in terms of their ‘era’:
Kara. (Jan 2009- Jan 2010)
– Kara was a wannabe popular kid who i befriended, under the impression that i too, could be popular. Her, well our antics brought me from an […]
I can’t stop the feeling i’ve been hiding like almost a year. Is haunting me again; i thought it was in the past. But i was lying to myself, even tho everyday i think about it for a minute, is part of my everyday memories and feelings; Â it comes back at night like a nightmare. I can’t control it, maybe is a sign that, it still remains to let me know that it’s not dead at all. That i can still save it. Save us. It won’t leave my head. That’s why i stay here.
My friend moved on yesterday. Helium. Wish it hadn’t worked. Dammit. Of course he would be clever enough the first time. No problem. Genius. Reminded me of my failed attempt. It was a long time ago. I had no perspective. Didn’t believe anyone else could understand. Not really. But now I understand. Really. He didn’t know that. Couldn’t have. I don’t share. Why would I. Why wouldn’t I. So here I am. Sharing.
I hate it. Hate me. Hate life. Now, ive gone so depressed that its no longer “society”, my parents, friends, etc faults. Its mine. Im a burden. That feeling you get when you realized you got replaced… <<< Ever wonder if youll ever get out of this misery? This is a bunch of randomness I cant even think. Im lonely, sad, mad, hurt. Heck, i have so many problems in my life rn that it seems never ending…
This is my first post. I am 15, and always feel like I cannot escape the pain within my life. I have been raped, lost my grandmother, my father left me, I moved, I have been bullied since 5, very few friends, harassed, abandoned, misunderstood, and much more. I put myself before others more so than anything else, and I cannot bare to do otherwise. But I get hurt for doing such a thing. I support self defense, and I would do so if required, and sometimes I do want to, but I cannot think of myself doing such things to someone.
What did I do […]
I feel like given up, i won’t fight anymore. I’m drowning. But somehow, i’m still here; and i don’t fucking know what is pulling me out of the sea.
Lost my wife. Lost my job. Lost my home. Living in my car.
Idon’t want to live but I’m afraid I’ll just fuck that up too.
Where do I go from here?
Anyone in Colorado feeling the same?
When you tell a therapist all your problems and they say, “Wow, oh my gosh! That’s a lot to deal with at your age.” And then invite you to a stress management session, you know your life is shit. I’ve told many of my “friends” that I didn’t want to live anymore, and they always say, “No, no! Just stick it out. You’ll see. You have so much to live for.” And then I don’t.
My mother is abusive. She’s getting old and losing her mind, and now that I’m at boarding school I have to constantly worry about my autistic&&ADHD brother and what she’s doing […]
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