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Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

I’m alive and free. (For everyone who saw my post yesterday)

by SeasOfBlue 7/12/2014

written by SeasOfBlue

I’m alive.

And I’m free.

I’ve never been more free in my life.
It feels so good.

I suppose I should explain what happened when I stopped posting yesterday. Basically, the pills were making me really tired and weak. I was dying, basically. It was getting really hard to type, because the simple movements were taking all of my energy. So, I said goodbye to all of you, and I fell asleep. I’m pretty sure it was closer to dying rather then sleeping, but I didn’t know at the time; I was too weak. Anyway, I never moved my laptop from on top of me, because the movement […]

7/12/2014 45 comments

Anyone Who Saw My Post Last Night or If You Didn’t Stop and Read This Please if You are feeling suicidal

by That1guy94 7/11/2014

written by That1guy94

First off I want to say thank you for all the people or most of the people who could understand and took time to be with me last night. I felt good when I was close to leaving that you people really cared even though you don’t know me. So thank you for that. And for that one person who was rude and inconsiderate please don’t comment. But I am going to stay positive.

So as you all know I hit rock bottom last night and couldn’t do it anymore. And I couldn’t take living anymore. So I acted. Not like other times where I was […]

7/11/2014 40 comments

Hardly.

by hellblau 7/7/2014

written by hellblau

You think your days are uneventful, and no one ever thinks about you. You think your days are ordinary, and no one ever thinks about you. But we’re all the same, and she can hardly breathe without you.

7/7/2014 0 comment

Easier

by hellblau 7/6/2014

written by hellblau

I don’t know your thoughts these days.
We’re strangers in an empty space.
I don’t understand your heart,
It’s easier to be apart.

7/6/2014 0 comment

Intent2Ki!!

by RealTalk30 7/5/2014

written by RealTalk30

I’ve told this story before but rather than have it disappear into obscurity I’d like it to be a lesson for all new comers, if it can help you understand your life a little better.

I tried to kill myself when I was in my early twenties. It’s been roughly 10 years since that night, and I won’t ever be able to shake it..that I know!
I was getting wrapped up into drugs and suffering from depression, and needless to say I wanted to die and had every intention in doing so. There wasn’t all this easy access to the Internet so methods were […]

7/5/2014 17 comments

My experience

by PerfectDay 7/5/2014

written by PerfectDay

It’s my first time here, I want to say that English is not my first language so I’m sorry if I make mistakes.

I’m 20 and I’ve been suicidal since I was 9, I’ve tried it a few times when I was younger and didn’t succeed but luckily no one even noticed. I’ve regularly made cuts in my legs since I was 12, my family and friends have seen the scars and even asked about them but none of them seems to actually care about it.

Last year I started talking with who is my best friend now, she’s suicidal too. We support each other and we […]

7/5/2014 3 comments

He

by hellblau 7/3/2014

written by hellblau

He makes me weak, He makes me smile, He makes me cry, He makes me love him, He makes me hate him, He makes me happy, He makes me sad. And still, I can’t get him out of my fucking mind.

7/3/2014 12 comments

July 4th, 2013 The day I died

by astalawago 7/3/2014

written by astalawago

In less than 24 hours it will be the one year anniversary of my suicide. Just typing that now the tears swell in my eyes. I’m left with multiple organ damage, some nerve damage and a dying heart valve that causes an arrhythmia. Memories that were so special are blurs and I’m but a shadow of my shadow. I meant every second of my suicide and it was the only time I’ve ever felt free. Free of pain: mentally, physically and emotionally. Free of fear, free from my past, free from the numbness and so alive that night is burned in me. The sensation was […]

7/3/2014 7 comments

Hello Darkness, my old friend…

by darknessfriend 7/1/2014

written by darknessfriend

“The Sound Of Silence” is track #12 on the album Old Friends Live on Stage. It was written by Traditional, . / Mcglynn, Michael Philip

Hello Darkness my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again

Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted
In my brain still remains
Within the sound of silence

In restless dreams, I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash
Of a neon light that split the night

7/1/2014 1 comment

The Guy

by Sammie Motionless 6/30/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

So today I met a guy really sweet and generous he went thru the same things that I have has the same things as me and we got along really well that guys in a band and going to the urban fest I can’t wait to see him again he has that guy has burn scars yet hes helping the outcasts in ways he could never imagine and I feel so glad to call him a ftiend that guy didnt say his name yet when we met next time ill update this that guy has a wonderful personality and everythings I am happy for him […]

6/30/2014 2 comments

i want to help u

by ronal007 6/29/2014

written by ronal007

There was a time when i posted my sad story on this forum.To be honest i never want to remember those moments again in my whole life. But I definitely want to remember and thanks to this forum, that today i am a better person.

I met somebody through this forum who really helped me to overcome those bad days. I would like to do the same with people out here. I want to help you all and make you feel comfortable. I want you all to know that i will always be there if anyone needs me then feel free to msg me on inhellut@gmail.com

6/29/2014 2 comments

First Post

by greensky 6/29/2014

written by greensky

Hi. I’m a 38-year-old female. I’ve been reading on this site for many months. But I’ve never posted. Today I felt like I should share my story. The first time I thought about suicide was when I was 10. I can remember locking myself in my bedroom closet for two months surrounding myself with pillows crackers and fantasizing about who would be at my funeral and whether anyone would care, I scratched at my wrists. That was the only self harm I can ever recall. That was the beginning of what I consider the bad gene. Fast forward to now present day and what I […]

6/29/2014 6 comments

Don’t know how to deal

by roxy1983 6/28/2014

written by roxy1983

A few weeks ago me and my fiance were to pick my mom up for an appointment she had. I opened the door all I saw was her legs and pills everywhere. I ran to her screaming “MOM”. She could speak she threw up all over herself her eyes were red. She looked so hopeless! My fiance got on the phone called an ambulance they came and asked her what she took all she kept saying was ” 5 bottles”, all we saw was Percocets on the floor. After she was brought to the ER and was settled we went back to her place to […]

6/28/2014 2 comments

It’s Been One Year Tonight

by mx6905 6/27/2014

written by mx6905

yes, I survived, It’s been one year tonight since the paramedics revived me, I was dead for nearly 5 minutes, spent several in a coma – most days I wish they hadn’t revived me, my life has gone into a worse spiral since. I’m more alone now than ever and the process a year ago has left many distant and detached… but I survived, I struggle daily to stay positive, forcing smiles, false hope – but it always seems to be futile. I wonder if it really is all worth it, major depression, a neuro-muscular disorder, and an inoperable brain tumor – got lot’s of […]

6/27/2014 2 comments

Failed…Again.

by Blake SinBad 6/23/2014

written by Blake SinBad

Hey guys, it’s been a while. Just thought I’d update about my shitty life.

Well, the night before the last day of school was…interesting. I know I had tried to kill myself in the past. Multiple times. But this time…I could feel it. I felt calm. I felt ready. My head was clear and my decision had been made…My rents were out in the garage doing whatever and I was inside alone. I grabbed a total of 63 aspirin (I know probably could have grabbed something better) and downed at least 13 or 14 of them. I had made sure to read the bottle and it […]

6/23/2014 9 comments

Hold on to hope and seek solace in the things that you love

by Jesss 6/18/2014

written by Jesss

So I am new here, I’ve read some of your stories and from what I’ve read you all seem like such strong, kind, loving caring people.
I know people have this attitude towards suicide and the word strong does not come up very often.
However yes you are strong!
You have made it this far and I hope with all my heart something will come to you to help you through your dark times and help you towards a light (not particularly a religious one, but something that will give you hope to carry on).
I guess my story is a survival story, I am […]

6/18/2014 2 comments

Not sure where to start

by djb428 6/17/2014

written by djb428

I’m 24 I’m a college undergrad and have been dealing with depression since I was young. Seems like I have to be strong for everyone but I don’t know how to let people be there for me. Every time I turn around the people I get close to leave me. Starting with my best friend being killed in front of me when I was younger and I blame myself for not being able to do anything like it should have been me instead. Not to add when I was young my baby sitter and her brother would take turns doing things to me I have […]

6/17/2014 3 comments

What’s your Favourite Movie?

by AbhishekShah 6/14/2014

written by AbhishekShah

Post some movie names here that made you feel good or something inspiring. Here is my list:

1. The Dark Knight + The Dark Knight Rises

2.Â The Odd Life of Timothy Green

3.Â The Pursuit of Happyness

4. It’s kind of a funny story 🙂

6/14/2014 18 comments

No Reason

by AlwaysMe 6/10/2014

written by AlwaysMe

There’s no reason big enough to end you life

There’s no heartache you won’t recover from

There is no past that you can’t overcome

There is no sadness that can drown you long enough

For you to come up gasping for breath

There is no obstacle big enough that you can’t jump over

There is no reason why you can’t lift the weight of the world from your shoulders

There is no plossible explanation to why you can’t remove suicide from your daily goal

There is no hurt that you’ve never experienced before

There is no girl or guy that can make you question your reason for living

Its your inner desire, that question your […]

6/10/2014 3 comments

Hello

by ambern 6/10/2014

written by ambern

I’ve tried to kill myself about .. 7 times. I’ve tried hanging.. Ended up blacking out and waking up to Demond’s and evil thing coming after me. I’ve overdosed 3 times. That ended with throwing up water and sleepless nights with ringing ears and sweaty palms. I was recently in a psychiatric hospital. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and severe depression. They put me on 3 different medications.. But I don’t take them. They make me foggy. I feel like people can read my thoughts and control them. I hear a man talking to me all the time. His name is 6. He leaves mean […]

6/10/2014 1 comment

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