depression is like a war, you either win, or die trying.
My feet are clammy from the marathons I am forced to run in my mind. Was that you that came to me in the hopeless dark of the night? Or are these blessed visions an after image of a cursed mind? My soul is an enigma. It baffles the masses and their fear overruns their ignorance. Alas, even I am perplexed by what I have become. A solitary phantom drifting down a rocky precipice but it cannot reach the dark waters. I wish I could ascend on starry wings though this is just a fantasy, once cherished. So what will be the method of my […]
just when you think you got it all together life hits you with a curve ball and puts you back in the slumps.
I overdose on pills, get rushed to the emergency room, transmitted to the mental health unit, get diagnosed with major depression disorder, and get prescribed pills. Pills will be the death of me. I can’t comprehend why they would give pills to someone not emotionally or mentally stable. And lets not forget I just overdosed on pills. Are the doctors trying to kill me?
You may not know it but so many people care about you… I’ve recently attempted suicide and when I woke up in the hospital only then I realized the awesome people I would have left behind. Yes life sucks and sometime it seems almost unbearable but nothing last forever not even emotions. Tough times don’t last, tough people do. Get the help you need and try your absolutely best everyday and you will find some sunshine in what seems like an awful storm. It’ll be hard, I won’t lie, there will be days when getting out of bed seems like a chore but never whatever […]
Suddenly i realized that it is not my nightmares i am afraid of, or the monster that hides inside me, nor the ghosts that hide in the corners or the darkness inside my mind.. i realize that what I’m actually afraid of is being alone.. “alone” that awful word to hear.
Im tired,I’m tired of everything my whole body is numb and my mind is almost gone I’m going to sleep, please don’t try to wake me up anymore because ill be gone by the time you get here and open the door to my room. So don’t waste your time.
I keep getting these constant fears that im going to end up all alone and it seems like it might be true.in 10 years will my parents even be alive and were will I be if there not here to take care of me.im going completely insane cause Ive never worked.i don’t do college . I’ve never been in a relationship nor is anyone even remotely interested in me.no kids.im disabled I want to die but am a coward who cant find the strength to jump off a bridge and the only other thing ive ever tried is overdose . everyone says im doing well […]
I have a past of self-harming – usually just to bring me pain, not to kill myself. This past year I have pierced myself 16 times. 14 ear piercings and at the moment I am getting Dahlia piercings. I noticed that during the times I’d go into my bathroom and puncture my skin, I would be extremely upset.
Am I self-harming?
i felt hate towards everything. then i got mad at God. now i am just sad. I wont slip into despair this time. i just really wish i could cry. i have not shed a tear in years. i have wept with joy. i remember feeling that happy. i feel the urge, but tears wont come. meh…..
I’m tired of being uncomfortable in my own skin. Of being embarrassed of who I am. Pulling everyone down. I’m a waste of space. Everyone moves on. So why can’t I just do it? Step in front of that truck or swallow the pills?
Even death has its problems, you guys
i just cant
I’ve been basically alone for 2 years straight, my family is “against” me for a couple of reasons. But anyway, i feel like i have no purpose to go on, really, i’m depressed, i don’t have REAL friends, i was bullied last year in school, and my family thought it was just a “phase”, i’m constantly critiziced for my looks and ideals, i’ve had so many people going in and out of my life, so many liers.
I have nothing to do with my life, i’m not interested in studying a career, i don’t have a hobby even tho i’ve tried many things.
I consider […]
family and friends repeat the same words, “itll get better, itll pass with time, this is just temporary” but it isnt, they dont understand how much pain ive been in, and when i get up to do something about my sadness im told im crazy, why would i do that, maybe i am crazy, but im trying yo find my happiness, what im doing now, the journey i took over the holiday week, i may not come back alive, but i am reaching out and trying to grasp my happiness, wish me luck, if this is my last post then that means i did not […]
Life sucks. It’s pretty simple. When you are born…your mother shits and pisses herself (at least most women do). So you’re born into shit and piss. When you die…you defecate yourself. Your life begins and ends in shit. And do you know what is all through your life? Shit. We do our best to get through it. But it’s all shit. People are fake liars. And even the best of us (humans/mankind) are pretty fucking terrible. Nothing good ever lasts. The pain and loneliness of life just builds and mounts. We sleep, eat, work, pay bills, go through heartache, headaches, financial problems, have families that […]
I dont know what to say. I am almost at peace as i write this. The idea to slit my wrists wont leave my mind no matter how i try and ive come to learn to accept it. That maybe i should do it. Maybe it is my time to die. I feel like screaming but to tired to do so. It is hard to breathe and i feel like the walls are closing in on me. I hate this feeling and want it to be over.
So I just printed my suicide note and hung the pages on my wall and then took some markers/highlighters to it to basically spice it up and draw some additional attention to all of the people I hate, and honestly, it actually made me feel better….
Just in case anyone else wanted to try the technique for a temporary band-aid on a gushing wound.
if I’m honest they’d never let me leave tho
at least blood looks cool in a bathtub
Life is death, death is life, there’s no life without death. Life is useless, life is worthless, life is not needed, at least not for me, life is a beautiful promess that can’t no be keep, life is a fairytale, life fed us up with bullshit, life makes us work our ass off for what, maybe something but at one point what will happen it will all go away, life tels you that itself is beautiful, but deep inside life is so ugly, life won’t last, all those things you’ve work for won’t last you won’t last and what will happen nothing, you’ll just go […]