I’ve been basically alone for 2 years straight, my family is “against” me for a couple of reasons. But anyway, i feel like i have no purpose to go on, really, i’m depressed, i don’t have REAL friends, i was bullied last year in school, and my family thought it was just a “phase”, i’m constantly critiziced for my looks and ideals, i’ve had so many people going in and out of my life, so many liers.
I have nothing to do with my life, i’m not interested in studying a career, i don’t have a hobby even tho i’ve tried many things.
I consider myself as a very romantic person (i don’t look like it). I’ve sort of “waited for the one”… that girl who i can take care of and make her happy, that girl who lights me up every single day, but that’s not happening any time soon.
There are SO MANY details and stories, but that’s not important, the thing is my life has been a LIVING HELL.
Is it worth waiting? is it worth to bear all the hate and anger i have inside? i don’t think suicide is selfish at all, sometimes is the best for the heart, why should i keep on suffering just for the sake of others who have done nothing for me? Should I end it? I really don’t know.