1 cut
2 cuts
3 cuts
4
The blood started dripping from the tub to the floor.
I almost always feel comfortable around others in a business sort of setting. When it comes to casual meetings and activities, I want the fuck out. I remember back when I had friends, and we went out to go eat, but I was bored to death. What was there to talk about? We already discussed poop. We talked about sex and food too. What was the point? Friends don’t last, they just come and go. We all run out of things to say, and being stuck in an unfulfilling relationship is… unfulfilling. I don’t get why people are so happy on the TV and outside […]
I feel very guilty for looking for a purpose. I know that the meaning of life is self-appointed, and as much as I try I know that I can’t find a reason. This is only day 6 of a weird bout of depression–I usually don’t get as depressed as this, where it heavily impacts me–but I am through with it. Why do I still go to lectures and pretend that all of this matters? Why do I still try to do well in class and get so fucking disgusted with myself when my grades aren’t the best? After undergrad is graduate and the formation of […]
You want to help someone, but you can’t. You try, but everything has failed. You want to give up, but you can’t.
What are you afraid of ? Stop running. Stand there. Stand and be strong. Be strong.
I am your safe haven. I will be your safe haven on earth. It’s okay. Stay with me. Don’t go. Don’t leave me. I will be strong enough for you.
I think.
No. I must.
so i’m going to introduce my self first, well i guess you can see that my name is Misa.
I love anime stuff, and i’m kinda weird and rebellious.
Some people think that i’m goody goody but that’s always at first, and when i ask them why do they think that i’m goody goody they said that is because of my looks, because i look like i won’t do bad things that’s always the impression, and decide to them selves that i’m like that, and […]
I thought I was doing good by not saying that as often on public forums. It’s natural to blurt it out every 10 minutes though. Sometimes the feeling creeps up behind me and forces me to shutter my head neck and shoulders, then the words come out.
When I say I hate my life.. it means I hate where my life has come from, where it left me and where I know it will keep leading me. I don’t hate the world even though that comes out sometimes too. I don’t hate people even though there is so much evil out there. I feel I’m […]
Ah god I am stupid….it hurts so much ….
I figured out too late that I don’t want to die ._.
What am I doing in here and not going to go call 911? Easy I’m too much of a retard and coward who would rather die I guess than seek help ….man I’m stupid.
I swallowed twenty Tylenol pills and even though I tried taking myself out of it I still did it …. I’m so stupid god I’m stupid.
I’m so tired and I feel so icky and ugh….my head hurts….my stomach hurts too. I tried puking them out and yet again […]
So this will be a first for me I come from a family run by my father and he’s to type to not seek help for shit and my mother wouldn’t cross him so I’ve always felt keeping everything bottled up is better I have a feelin this will get long so to anyone that wants the short before hand it basically goes im 27 male been depressed for to many years to count now never been on meds or seening someone about it or even really talked about it before in my earlier years have made 3 different attempt on my life […]
I cut again today. It was the first time I had in a while, for at least a month or two. I came home from a birthday dinner in a normal mood. I had somewhat attempted to make plans after the dinner but then decided it was too much effort to try and figure out what people were doing and I was kind of tired. I felt like people didn’t want me to hangout with them after, but I’m almost certain it was all in my head considering I didn’t put out very much effort and I’m also somewhat known as wanting to stay home […]
It is amazing how life can fall out of grasp within a blink of an eye. It is like yesterday that I was happy and carefree with the world shinning brightly before me. However, it is not yesterday, it is today and today I feel as if there is nothing for me. The world is not mine for the taking and the Sun has disappeared completely. I’m sad, I’m lonely and I fear it will never get better. Maybe life isn’t for everybody because I may be breathing but inside I’m suffocating. Life shouldn’t be this hard. Living has simply turned into surviving and I […]
I did It two years ago.I went two days without eating,only drinking.Its better than cutting.
Hi, Im Angeline. Im 15 years old and Im in a relationship. My boyfriend is the same age and we’ve been together about a year and almost a month now. But the reason why Im typing this is because I’ve been depressed since July of this year. Our relationship was amazing in the beginning. He would always call me afterschool and we wpuld be on the phone till we got tired. We hung around each other alot, we held hands, etc. But then around July he started to push me away. I started to feel upset because it seemed like he didnt care about me […]
What did I do??Why am I considered a bad person to my family??Something goes missing,Carlos did It.If something happens around the house Its my fault.If I loose something nobody gives a shit.Just when I thought I was getting better my own family Is pushing me.I’m surprised I haven’t killed myself yet.Right now I just need a shoulder & someone to tell that Its gonna be okay.
I think I am going to do it this week. I won’t say how but too be honest i have tried everything to fix myself and nothing works. The woman I love so dearly has given up on me and our friendship because I can’t stop seeing another woman that gives me nothing, it’s all my fault and I feel as though I’m drowning every day. My uni work is piling and piling and piling and regardless that I graduate in a few months time it’s not enough to keep me going.
I never used to be depressed. I was so happy at one stage in […]
Hi everyone. Well a little about me, I was born to a 16 and a 17 year old couple, their relationship didn’t last, so I was raised by my mom. When I was 2 my dad came back in to my life and I would go and spend the night with him every now an then at his mom’s house. When I was 5 me and my brother spent a month with him during the summer. During that time I was molested by a man who, I guess was a family member of my step grandpa. At first I knew it was wrong, but as […]
Faded and gray
I live to die another day
Helpless I stay
And wish there was another way
I lie here unbeknown to the world
As it continues to turn
The sun shines over head
As I rise from my bed, faded and gray
I live to die another day
Fight your enemy.
First destroy his heart,all he loves, and all who love him back.
Next destroy his mind and philosophies.
Finally, cripple him with a single shot.
Now I lay in a state of nothing.
I am dead yet alive for I have defeated my ene-me.
I don’t know why I bother going to therapy. I don’t know why I bother telling her the things I can’t talk about with anyone else. I don’t know why I try to get better, because I always find a way to fuck it up.
I fucked up today. It may cost me a job I had been relying on getting offered.
I don’t know what to do any more. I don’t know how to keep trying when I keep making it all wrong. I just exist wrong, and you know, maybe some people do. Maybe I’m just an aberration and I should have got the picture […]
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Don’t even try, Yorke says. Don’t get any big ideas, any silly dreams. Look at you. You’re a speck of dust in the cosmos, if that. Who do you think you are? To the universe, you’re just a bunch of noise, if that.
I’m slowly coming to honest terms with myself; that despite all the effort, I can’t fix this whole thing. This weight problem. It drags me down both physically and figuratively. I feel cross with myself all the time: why can’t I successfully diet? Why can’t I stick to a plan religiously? The universe doesn’t want me to be happy, and I’m not going to fight back anymore. It’s sickening, how polluted my mind is. Fat. Food. Carbs. Weight. Fat. Not good enough. Disgusting. I don’t know how much longer before wanting to die becomes needing to die. I can’t fucking wait for […]