So I posted before on another account that I would attempt the dehydration suicide method. I said I would check in a hotel on my forth day of drinking and eating nothing. I did but it was on the 6th day. I took some things with me in a backpack like clothes my toothbrush mouthwash moisturizer and my note in a sealed envelope. I was feeling very weak already I had to raise my voice a little because I couldn’t hear myself and no one could, I was just confused the whole time. The people who saw me I guess they thought I’ve always been […]
Okay so I know I sound like I complained a lot in my last post but despite all that, I do have some upsides I guess I could share. If I find happiness in them maybe others will too.
#1(And my most important upside). Music! Music has always made me feel happy and I can’t help but get lost in it for hours singing along while I play video games or draw, which leads me to…
#2. Art. Drawing, painting, and writting help me calm myself down, usually because despite the fact that a lot of my drawings can be very […]
Hi im having a smal breakdown. Just thought about cutting. Ive never tried, and I really want to. How do I do it, brcause im worried…
Please…
Tonight I will be successful and I wont stop until I black out. 9 liters of water this time and an empty house!!! I will die tonight!!!?
“She stood in the storm and, when the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted her sails.” – Elizabeth Edwards
I thought I could come to college and settle in and not want to go home til thanksgiving break. But no, I had to get a rude room mate, be told i don’t belong here, and deal with depression that everything is causing. This weekend I’m’m going to visit home but I’m starting to wonder if ill end up coming back to college. I’ve been doing class and homework nonstop since I came here and I’m taking 20 units. My volleyball coach is mad cuz I’m not doing well in practice and I’m not going to the gym. I haven’t had time because of […]
I posted about an hour ago a post named something like “maybe we already are living in the afterlife and got doomed to hell” and it got deleted. There was nothing in the content. Anybody know why it got deleted?
Im just so frustrated and done with everything. Its my first full semester in college. I have learned that I do not belong at this school, people have said so to my face. The only reason im with my current roommate is because she was drugged during the summer term and i helped her. She constantly brings me down saying i have no tits or my face is awful. She treats me like a 2 year old and is extremely rude. She doesn’t take what I want and need intl consideration, she only thinks about herself. I do everything I can for her to be […]
Well I don’t want to make a big deal about this, I just wanted to let it out. but it just hurts me when people use me. I know I let it happen to myself but the people that I thought I loved are the ones using me. You’d think you were finally happy and you finally had someone you could lean on.. But nope. In just five seconds they turn on you and you’re left alone.. I wish I had someone who I know would never drop me.
Society doesn’t want me around, much less do a damned thing to help me. But it will pull out all the fucking stops to keep me from leaving. Like an abusive husband who hates me but won’t let me divorce.
I am going to make an attempt soon (next six months to a few years, depending on how my plans work out). The only thing I fear now is failing and surviving with serious injury that preclude retries.
I am OK with leaving. Society isn’t. I must find a way to disobey society and leave. People have generally told me that I am intelligent. Well now, all […]
I’ve been clean for three, four months and a couple of days ago i cut again, i hate myself for it, everything that’s going on, friendships, wanting to be non-binarry/ftm but my mum will never ever accept me, i just feel so load, and hour ago i broke down in my Uni class, i hate myself i’ve always been so strong and right now i’m the weakest i’ve ever been, i feel like i’m being pulled and dragged around by my family, the people i talk to i don’t know who i am anymore…
I won’t eat, i’m losing so much weight, i’ve got people saying […]
I’ve struggled with disdain and hatred for my body for the duration of my depression, I was diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder last August and it all culminates at times. I just can’t stand my face, I’ve honestly tried cutting parts of it off with scissors multiple times but I’m a ***** and couldn’t stand the pain and blood. I have a particular hatred for my right eye, I have no idea why, I just hate it. It doesn’t look right, it’s ugly, it ruins my face, ugh, it’s just horrible. I’ve gone through bouts of wearing eyepatches for months at a time and my […]
No thinking just typing; the end will come and free us we will be together in union.
The days pass, fortunate to be alive in this dreamworld, spent time meditating spent time reading spent time dancing.
Wanting to depart to fast forward towards the Light to be embraced and be reborn.
I will love you always, you who is reading this, I want to look in your eyes & see the whole of the universe, you are my world, I love you always have…
Bring me closer to my home where the flowers dance forever as waves in the fields…
The windmill will take me flying through the sky finally […]
I need help:( I want someone to Run through the door right now and save me. That won’t happen…I have everything I need to kill myself quickly. Guess this is it. Noone cares enough to stop and listen to me.
Women are capable of hurting us too… Don’t get too attached to quickly.. 🙁
I m In Love With Him 1 year ago. now in between we are in love deeply love but today suddenly i see that one girl in he’s whatsapp profile i dont know whos she, i ask to him whos she??. but he says i dont knw what u say i knw see that pic in my phone i don’t know any girl also say that he check friends phone but that picture is see only in ur phone . i don’t believe in that . I love him very Much i cant live without him please help me what can i do in this […]
I Love You JANA. I knw u have already gf But I have no any problem with his. Please yaar Plz dont broke my heart Like tjis i cant live without You Plz come back I Promise i love more than ur gf plz come back i cant live yaar i cant
Well, I am in my final year of my studies. I somehow managed to scrape through the first 3 years but I honestly I don’t know how. This is my 4th year and I have no clue what I have been doing. For 4 years I have not progressed at all. Apart from going to lectures, I spend all my time in my room watching anime, reading or playing games. I have suffered chronic depression for as long as I can remember as well as social anxiety. I hated school beyond words, the worst part about school was break time. I never had anyone to […]