I know you know that there are no victors in a war, because I know that, and we are us. Let’s raise the white flag together, on 3. Aren’t you tired of fighting? Am I that stubborn? Are we cool?

Many soldiers died on this ground, from both sides. I’m done. There. Helmet’s off. You see my hair. Golden-brown. Ain’t it pretty?
Show me your face. I’ve always wondered how you look like behind that war paint.
Let’s put our guns down.
Let’s hug it out.
I feel you. Do you feel me?
Do you feel the pain? Does it feels familiar?
Does the knife running […]

I know there are a few people who would miss me for a time, but in all honesty I’m not really apart of any ones life enough to warrant prolonged grief, I can imagine what it would be like for a little while people would ask where I am and someone would say “he killed himself” and they’d say “that’s so horrible he seemed so nice” and then they would change topic because they realise that they didn’t really know me, so few seem to.
Not that long ago my friend’s girlfriend was going on about what good friends we were and how she had […]

I will never feel his touch

I miss him so much

His absence I feel

His love I appeal

The love I gave

I take to the grave

My heart doth break

By the love you take

If you only knew

The love you drew

I gave a plenty

But now am empty

You have my heart

For as long we part

Never one like you

Impossible to renew

You cannot tell

I’m an empty shell

LOVE YOU ALWAYS

First post I’ve read on this website was titled “Depressed Aquarius”, and I can relate to everything in there. I am an Aquarian too, and they say Aquarians are thinkers, no, overthinkers, but I am not quite sure if that is true for everyone, but for me it is. I had two aquarius ex girlfriends and I don’t think they tend to overthink as much as I do. I have never been diagnosed with depression or any mental health, I’ve never even consulted any medical professionals regarding it, but I have an ex girlfriend who was majoring in psychology in college when we were still […]

“She is not someone you understand. She is someone you watch, someone you use, someone you mourn. She is made for love but love is not made for her. Everything about her runs deeper than in you; her madness is truer, her mind brighter and better broken, and her anguish is in her bones, not her blood. You will never forgive her for dying, but she will aways be dead forever, and your horror means nothing to her anymore. That, more than anything is why you still dream about her and her flowers thrown like curses. She has made herself no longer yours to dream […]

On the chance you may read this…

Your absence is noticed. You are missed. SP needs your wise words, your sense of humor, your kindness. And to host the Saturday night party. They were fun and simply wouldn’t be the same without you hosting it!

Know you are being thought of.

Suicidal thoughts don’t make you a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed. These thoughts occur to when our pain is greater than we can cope with. Will power has nothing to do with it. If we could cheer ourselves up, we would. We all experience different kinds of pain and we all have different limits. If you ever feel like giving up, just know that you are not alone. There are many of us feeling the same way. But don’t give in, talk to someone first. Talk to a friend, a stranger, talk to me..

do you have any idea how much oxycontin it would take? I take 60 mg TID. I have 60 left. Most I ever have is 90.

Hello guys am 20 years old am here cause I don’t have anyone else to talk to been with my girlfriend for 4 years i I can honestly say she was the best thing that’s ever happened to me and we been broke up the last week it was the most hardest thing that I ever experienced I drunk ever day since it happened just so I can sleep at night plus I’ve only eating twice since it I actually don’t want a life without her yous might just think am goin thought a breakup am not I’ve experienced them before but nothing like this […]

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Im sorry for tons of posts but I thought everyone needed to be happy to I found this very beautiful, insperational picture of a fox that just makes me happy.

SMILE!

Smile because god gave you teeth and a mouth to do it. I dont care if my picture burns your eyeballs out, just smile! Please?

Ill add a nice quote for you to think about.

“We accept the love qe think we deserve.”

I can’t go on. I just spent the last hour trying to find something to bring me happiness to snap out of this and I can’t find any reason worth carrying on for. Everything I used to know is pretty much gone or changed. My stomach is killing me and I am numb. I look at dieing as almost a good way to be able to end this stress and pain that never goes away. It is sad, but true.

I don’t know what made me find this site… well I do bit I don’t know what made me decide to stay here. I guess I just thought maybe writing out my thoughts would help. But then again not much can help anymore. So… I’m not sure what to tell anyone, as if anyone’s gonna care but here I go.

I haven’t always been suicidal, in fact I used to never stop smiling, to always be happy. But recently I’ve just had so much happen. One thing that’s got me so depressed is probably losing a lot of my family […]

I hate attention so dont think im asking it with my posts. Im new, and not sure how to work this yet. So want to know me if you care?

Im deeply depressed, and only recently found out how bad it was.

Ive never told anyone I know about it.

Nobody at school knows.

Im 14.

Im a girl named randi-leigh.

I hate my name.

Im a “fake smiler”

I like imagine dragons

I cry a lot

My parents are divorced

I hate my body

I guess I have more problems then depression

I wish I coukd be dead.

I don’t know what to do. I am stressed out and dont think i have the energy to get through yet another day. I don’t have anyone to talk me through anything since we moved. Noone cares. I am pretty sure if I died tonight, I wouldn’t be missed. I am tired of helping everyone, And putting on a happy face when nothing is okay. I want to die right now.

I guess I fell for that fateful curse of “tomorrow could be the day that it all gets better”… and dya know the cruel joke about tomorrow? Tomorrow never comes.

I’m done waiting for something that won’t happen for me.

My mom is on this big kick about how she is getting rid of all the toxic/negative people in her life.  It makes me want to punch her in the face because she is the most toxic person in my life… They taught me how to work hard, they didn’t teach me how to live or that there is anything worth living for.  All I know is that I’m embarrassed 98% of the time and that living sucks.  I just want to okay.. its all I’ve ever wanted is just to be okay.  Okay would be enough.

Have you seen Avatar? Not the cartoon but the giant blue people. No? Well, if you have time and are looking for a good movie, you should take some time to watch it. In the movie, Jake and Natiri go on an adventure and slowly being to “see” each other. It’s not a matter of having sight. It’s a matter of being able to see into someone. You can see their soul and true self and you can show an immense respect for someone because you see them. This is a notion I’ve always had. I care only for the beauty of your soul and […]

I’m trying to stay grounded, to not let this silly thing get to me, but I can’t. Writing is the only thing that is keeping me from hurting myself and even then I struggle to find my words. Everyone keeps telling me the same thing, that this guy was a douche or some other name, but I want to know why such a nice guy would say the cruelest thing to me the morning after such an amazing day. I was blind sided I thought things were going well he was sweet and never rude to me until this morning. I want to know what […]

I’m bored and need friends. Chatting in person is pretty nice. So I’m wondering who here is from Reno or within reasonable distance. Maybe we can get a support group going here or just have coffee and try to feel “normal” for a little while.